why is everything soo good right noww? -Brianna

im gonna have to let it go in 2.5 days. theres no problems with me and Jason, what little drama happened this year, is fixed. all the people i care about, are with me. but in just 2 and a half days i have to let it go. i have to let some people go. i dont even know if me and jason are going to high school together. will i cry on the last day of school? yes.. mostly of fear of not seeing him again and having to break up. see, i dont do long distance relationships. they're stupid and hardly ever work. like the friends im not going to high school with i have their numbers, i know where they live *nd if i dont ill figure it out ;)** we all have facebooks, myspaces, and twitters. but Jason.. its harder letting him go cause i love him. i mean yeah i love my friends but its a different kind of love. and like lately hes super sweet. like, for example, i asked him what he was gonna do for the three day weekend, and he replied saying "think about you mostly" :) last night around 9:30, he texted me out of the blue and wrote "ily for ever" today we've been texting and talking as much as we can. i know durring the summer we can plan to meet up but its harder because my moms supper strict now because of my sister. i mean im not complaining its just "i wish"... thats all i seem to be saying lately. "i wish we could hang out together" "i wish we could go to high school together" "i wish we could talk instead of text" "i wish rumors would stop spreading" i wish... but againn.. im not complaining, im jsut wishing.. anywyas. my weekend was alrightt, boring but good. right now ive got a head ache which sucks but i'll just take some Tylenol. well gotta go get ready fer school tomorrow, adios. oh P.S. jason says he might give me the surprise tomorrow :D if he does i'll blog during school. tomorrow is also the cast party, and im getting my shoes for graduation :D okay now im off byee!!

"Every time you're near
Trouble disappears
Under the ground
But when you go to far
Silver clouds will start hanging around
And I know why
Try to run
But I keep on
Coming back
Full circle
And I can't jump the track
Can't let you go"

My last few days -Nilsa

Most importantly: we moved! Finally! We can now walk to stores, AND say hi to random people without them thinking we're total freaks! It's kinda hard downsizing by a whole 1,000 square feet though, and it feels like we've been working so long and yet there are still boxes EVERYWHERE, and more stuff to bring from the old house...

I was also asked to prom by the one and only Riley! Yes... it is Brianna's ex boyfriend, but I'm trying to stop feeling bad about it since she's completely assured me that she has no feelings for him. Besides, it's only prom, right? Right. I'm wearing the same dress that I've worn to every formal occasion since the fifth grade, but whatever. People tell me it's nice. It might sound weird that it's fit me so long... basically, we widen the straps every once in a while, and it continuously becomes shorter...

I know that there have to be some more things going on, but these would have to be the most important.

Brown Eyes- Brianna

"Guess its just a silly song about you
And how i lost you
And your brown eyes" that describes a lot. a lot of my past. things that don't matter anymore. things that are two faced and liars. I'm sad my best friend doesn't talk to me any more but I'm also thanking him on the inside. cause if we were still talking, i don't think i would've stayed with Jason. and i cant even picture myself without him. one week 6 days makes it one or two months. depends on how you look at it. with Jesus, everything felt right and it was... perfect i never had doubts and honestly, it was kinda boring. with Jason things are amazing, not perfect but perfect is boring. like all these rumors make him prove to me he really does love me and so far hes done a really great job of showing me. i had my first kiss with him. hes changing me, and ill be the first to admit that, but i like it. like I'm more risky. after our first kiss i was terrified he'd try something in front of the cameras, now were kissing right in front of teachers. at his soccer game, i through my phone at Nilsa not even caring if shed catch it. *thankfully she did** and i slid across the bleachers. it was so cool. like its hard to describe but i guess you can say hes bringing out my rebellious side. i guess its not just him, but me growing as a person, and of course, Nilsa had a little something to do with it:) but anyways hes told me, and shown a lot of my friends that hes got a surprise for me. sadly, i cant see it til graduation. 4 more days. the only hints ive gotten is that its in a little red box, and that its hidden in the picture of a flower. but i guess i'll find out soon. so you wanna know what i found out yesterday? i can tie a cherry stem into a not :) haha it took me a lot of tries and when i finally got it, it took me a while but still! i can do it. haha. so Tuesdays my cast party and im supper excited for it. i think its gonna be a lot of fun. im hoping it will be. anyways, im pretty much done here. oh wait, no im not. i gotta explain what happened yesterdayy. so im extreamly terrified of heights. that includes five inches off the ground. that includes being picked up by someone. that includes anyone i trust. yesterday jason tried to pick me up, but i had to beg him not to he still tried, my eyes watered up and my heart beat increased quickly. he said he was sorry. i know he is. i guess i never mentioned it to him so its not his fault. anyways at our school after lunch we go out to the track and we get like 10 mins. to just chill out there. when the ten minutes are done, we have to line up in our line *were separated my gender** and then go inside. well yesterday, when they were calling us to line up, i started heading that way, but then jason led me to where no one could see us... sorta. and..bam.. and theennn at the end of the day we had a baskeball game. when it was over i waited about 5 minutes to say bye to jason but i didnt see him so i got on my bus. i felt something hit me so i lokoed out the window. jason hit me with a skittle to get my attention. i got off the bus and we did get to say bye before the three day weekendd :) haha okay now im done cause my sister just got home from her date with her boyfriendd nd she needs the computerr :P haha goodbyee!!

Butterfly Heart - Lauren

I wrote this, i wanted to see what yall thought, I didn't wanna post it on my blog as it posts to facebook and i can't figure out how to turn that off. ><

Butterfly Heart
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*Chorus
Butterfly fly fly away
And i need you now
and I want somehow
This feeling I can't hide
to Butterfly Fly Fly away
*
I've this crazy feeling
deep in my heart
this crazy feeling, in my mind
I'm flutterin-I'm wonderin-Why?
cuz there's a feeling i can't hide
No not anymore
no not again
*Chorus
I feel the rush-now i can't breathe
I feel the flush-now i can't speak
I feel the crush-now i can't See!
Cuz i need you now... I want, somehow
This crazy feelin deep inside...
To butterfly fly fly away!
Well
*Chorus
-Away
*Chorus
-away, away, away
Well Butterfly fly fly...

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Ok, that's it. I just wrote it, soooo yeah. Comments? Thoughts? Thanks. ^_^

Im Really Getting Sick of This. - Minz(haley)

I just need someone to vent to. To cry on. Because I'm
so sick of this... back and forth game we're playing.
This "I'm going to come see you" "Never Mind" game.
I'm sick of you putting everything before me. Im sick
of waiting for you. Its Endless. Im sick of not being in
your future. I know your education is important, but
is our relationship not? You know if you stay with your
dad it'll be impossible for you to see me until "you get
settled". That won't be until next year. I know I said
I can wait, and I know I can. I don't want to wait. Im your
girlfriend, I should be just as important. You shouldn't
make decisions only for you, because it'll affect me too.
But I know education is major to you. But then again, I
should be too. And I'm not. You have to realize that since
we are together, and it is a long distance relationship, you
can't just decide that you're going to stay with someone
who is as impossible as your dad. Because you know that
nothing is going to change. We didn't argue this much
when you are with your mom. But obviously that's not what
you want. To be with your mom. But know that if you choose
the wrong thing, you could possibly be putting our relationship
in jeopardy because there's only so much one person can take.
And you're pushing the limit with all these games. I'm supposed
to be in your future. But you can't only think of me in the long run,
you'd just rather have me suffer and wait so that you can do what
you have to do for only yourself? I don't know how much of this
I'm willing to take. I love you, but if you're willing to put me through
a years worth of wait, I don't know how much you love me. You
know that I hate the waiting. And you claim to be trying everything
to come see me. But somehow I don't believe that's the case at all.
I think you want me to think you're trying, so I can convince myself
to keep waiting. You know, I'm impatient. And I keep telling myself
to wait, but you and these " I might come see you " "Oh Im going to stay
with my dad. I'll see you next year" are killing me.

Friends? -Nilsa

Friends are supposed to make your life better, right? They're the ones who make you smile on a rainy day! But for some reason, as soon as I am out of her life, it becomes perfect. Dispite what people say, I can't get over the fact that that is proof of me being a bad friend. I was only in her way.

are you effing kidding me..? -Brianna

Ever felt like crying but you just couldn't get the tears out? Is that like.. crying on the inside? well it like that right now. for the past 3 days I've wanted to I really did and my eyes got watery and all.. but nothing. Its pissing me off. like one thing that's on my mind a lot lately is Jason, my boyfriend. we didn't kiss at all today but that's not what made me like "wtf" after school is when we usually kiss, but today he just goes "not today" and I go "okay" and just walked off. hes pissing me off a little. like, lately I feel like hes gonna break up with me again so im worried about that cause he makes me happier than any other guy I've gone out with and that says a lot. but anyways so I get the feeling hes going to so I talked to him about it and you'd think that after you talk to them they fix things right? so did I. he didn't. he just made it soo much worse and raised my suspicions. and lately I've been hearing that hes trying to talk to his ex again so I'm just like... ummm what the fuckk. seriously yer gonna talk to HER more than ME?!! #@!$%% bleghh guys are so stupid sometimes I swear. I'm glad I kinda didn't give him my heart fully this time cause I don't need another heart break from him. he hurts me the most nd that's because I love him the most.. ughhhhh its just like super complicated right now nd I don't know what to do.. :'( nd I wish I could talk to either one of my best friends but one isn't allowed to talk to me and the other thinks I'm a whore for getting my first kiss in middle school. my bestestest friend Jesus, cant talk to me cause according to his girlfriend we flirt to much so she made him choose me or her. he chose her. and my other best friend.. well I got my first kiss at the most recent dance and shes calling me a whore now so you know its cool. In times like these I turn to this blog right heree.. so the people I wanna talk to the most I cant talk to them so you know its cool.. anyways today I went to look for my prom/graduation dress.. no luck in the whole store there was like 8 dresses for teens and like 3 of those were okay for a celebration so I'm just like bleghh about itt. I'm trying again tomorrow but still I wish I could just get the dress I want but I don't think I will... but whatever... okay so its taken me like 45 minutes to write this and my eyes just got watery.. but still no tears.. now I'm just getting frustrated... well whateverr I'm gonna go to bed.. try to cry at least once before tonight ends.. good nightt.

Hello There! (first post) - Lauren

Hi everybody! My name's Lauren, I'm Nilsa's friend from Harry Potter Camp. XD
I'm 17, I go to Round Rock High, and when school starts again I'll be a senior.
I have several good friends, and one best friend. We've been best friends for ten years nearly, Her name is Sam (also known as Samantha, Sammie, Sammy, and occasionally Foxy)She lives in the middle of nowhere Louisiana, but she used to live here. We've had our Issues, but to quote an unknown source: “The ones who are bound to be your best friends must lose your trust just once to prove that they can win it back". And win it back she did. ^_^ I love my Sis. <3
I have a crush on one of my guy friends, But he's a senior and moving... so i don't really know what to do. We went on one date because our friend Montanna made us, but he said he just wants to be friends. >> I've never had a boyfriend for real, I've never been kissed, I feel like i'm Behind. >< Is that sad? I dunno.

Anyways, That's a very short intro to me.
Post again later!

So. -Nilsa

So Ryan is telling people that HE broke up with ME. I honestly don't see what the point of that is. First off, I consider it semi-neutral. We both knew it was gonna happen, I was just the one who did the actual, "I don't think we should go out anymore." So if it was anyone, it sure wasn't him.
Did I mention the main reason I did it? It was because he was making fun of "fruit loops." The reason I gave him? I don't want it to be long-distance next year. I suppose that's part of it.

Austin park and pizza andd ughh!!! @#&##!! -Brianna

so Thursday (yesterday) we went to Austin park and i had soo much funn. i hung out with Jason *my boyfriend* and Isaac and Seth *two of my very close friends* so i was around people that i loved all day. no drama right? rightt. so me and Jason were playing mini golf and we kissed once. before we left, i went to get water and he was out there and we talked and kissed once. in that whole day we kissed twice. that's it. today guess how many times? 0. none. we hardly talked.. its like it was right before he broke up with me.. and in one week i had a dream that he did three times.. its just a really bad feeling. i told him about my dreams and he assured me he wouldn't do that and yesterday he told me that he loves me and that without me he doesn't know who he is. and i know he really does care about me but there's that thing in the back of my head that's telling me not to fall to fast or hard. i guess its just the walls around my heart... anyways today was like stupid. first of all me and Jason hardly talked, and i didn't get to see him before we left for the weekend so that kinda ruined the day. but the worst part? Jesus told me he CANT talk to me at all. i asked him to tell me why.. he told me its cause Destiny wont let him. she thinks we flirt too much. i don't blame her. shes getting intimidated by me and shes just keeping whats hers. i just wish that i could keep my best friend.. but i guess somewhere deep down i knew that we couldn't be best friends for forever...

my first kiss went a little like this..-brianna

*continuation** okay so it was perfect. heres what happened. i was in the gym with Cesi nd Monce. Cesi went to go get water. Me and monce were talking and i was also texting. Cesi runs in and says "put down that phone and go talk to your boyfriend" so i go out there and i go "are you gonna get in trouble" and he says not if i dont hurry. which the way he said it sounded kinda.. nicee :) anyways so we were talking a little and i was messing with the water fountain and then like the way he looked at me was.. amazing and i knew what was coming. nd it happened. five seconds at least. its weird but it was amazing. then today in the hallways we did it again. i got this really weird feeling in my stomach and i really honestly didnt want to stop but i had to go to class... but that feeling it didnt go away and i didnt even eat lunch because it was still there. and everytime i thought about it id like blush big big big time. then after lunch when we were walking to the line to go back inside, he tapped my ass, which made my day sooo much better because my ex boyfriend had been trying to do that all day long, but i didnt let him. anyways. like me and Jason are just sooo good right now.. it.. it makes me really happy that like he really cares about me despite all the rumors i heard. anyways gotta go touch up my fair and get ready fer thursday :) oh P.S. the reason i finished it now was becasue my sister was in the room nd i didnt want her reading any of it. haha

Don't you remember when I was a bird, and you were a map? -Nilsa

Ugh. Eff. Lame. Dude. Shoot.
EVEN THE ONES WHO HAVE BEEN PRETENDING TO BE MY FRIENDS AGAIN JOINED IN! Seriously? I was freaking standing there talking to Kathy, both of us standing in pretty much the same spot, and they freaking call ME a lesbian because of it. Dude, it's called the GIRL'S LOCKEROOM. This means that girls change in there. IN FRONT OF OTHER GIRLS. You can't have a private room just for the ones you approve of watching you dress.
If I wanted to look at them, I freaking would. If I wanted to talk to Kathy, which I did, I would stand there and talk to her without paying attention to them I would, WHICH I DID.
Even if I was one. Who the.... *grr*... cares??!!
I'm sick of hearing my name wispered, hearing about things they've been wispering, and, as the latest and greatest, THEM WRITING SONGS ABOUT HAVING TO COVER UP WHEN I WALK INTO THE ROOM.
Thanks for listening.

my first kiss went a little like this.. -Brianna

today was like technically my first make out. like i did it at the dance too, but it was like two or three seconds. not that exciting. not compared to this one. :) this one was 5-8 seconds, it was by the water fall, and it was amazing. like... he was holding me close, and tightly, yet lightly. he was breathing heavily which is someone extremely attractive, .... finish laterrr

I Just Stepped In Dog Crap With Bare Feet -Nilsa

It's true, and I thought it made an interesting headline, so I used it. I don't want to go into detail though.
My last few days have been... hmmmm. For lack of a better word, they have been okay. I didn't get to go to the dance; my mom had a date;) But I heard about everything that happened there and I figured it would be better just to not ba a part of it. Always being stuck in the middle is probably better than taking a side, but I don't exactly enjoy it. And it is ALWAYS where I am. The drama earlier in the week freaked me out, like it always has since September 12th, 2009. Everyone was doing something wrong and everyone was doing something right, and I was trying to keep everyone as happy as possible.
It kinda sucks. I dunno if my mental state would count as "Over it," "Obsessed with the past," or somewhere in between. I've never been through this before. I don't know anyone (in person, at least) who has been through this before. Whats normal? Is there a normal? How often does this even happen? I suppose I've moved on enough. I don't cry anymore, almost ever, and never about that. I have new friends... but It's not over for me yet. I can just feel it. I suppose this all goes back to, "I realized I need Closure -Nilsa" from last month. Yeah, that's what I need.

dance :) -Brianna

last night was amazing. more amazing than I thought id be. I mean shit went down, nd I hated it, but we fixed it... I think. but then I had an amazing time because I was with Jason. lemme tell you about the shit first. my best friend Mileena was at the dance, and so was one of my amazing friends Lexi, i talked to them a little bit before Jason got there. once he got there Mileena was telling me to go with him so I did, and I'll admit, I didn't leave his side more than twice until the dance was over, unless it was needed. so then at like 8 something I get a text from lexi saying something along the lines of "if he was a real bf he wouldnt keep you from your friends, and if you really loved me you wouldnt let him" I replied saying "lexi i dont talk to him or see him over the weekends, we dont have any classes together, i only see him for passing periods and lunch. i jsut wanna spend time with him, cut me some slack please?" then she said something like just dont let it get out of hands. then later I saw my best friend nd she looked pissed or stressed and all thatt. so i went up to the stage to talk to her. she told me what was on her mind. I told her what was on mine, then we danced a little. I dont know if that cleared us, cause at the end of the night I texted her saying "i love you!! thanks fer giving me and jason the night together, i love you melly!" but she didnt reply. anyways. the good stuff? well if you didnt notice, me and jason got an hour and a half together just talking nd I got my first official kiss last night too :)

it was fun but if you ask me, dances are over rated. its where all the drama happens, its when all the tears come out, its when you show your true self because you figure no one cares its a dance. but the truth is, people do watch. its a stupid thing but... I dont knoww.. anyways again, I had fun. when I got home I showered nd when I got out I had a missed call from my friend I called her back and we talked for like 30 minutes. then my other friend called me and I talked to him for a little bit then I told him I had to go to sleep. I was gonna go to sleep until my mom asked me to get on her facebook and change something for her. that led to me getting on my facebook, only to find Nilsa online. I told her to call me. she did. we ended up talking for a while and I dont know if any of what I said made sense. haha but then I told her I really had to go to sleepp and I finally didd :) haha well thats all that happened last nightt.

post 100 cool :)- Brianna

this one is gonna be shortt, but with a lot of meaning... you know how when you read something, and your heart skips a beat and then youre like did that really just happen? haha well i went to my boyfriends pmyspace page, and read his status from may ninth, the day we told each other we still loved each other, and it was like really cute. wanna read itt? yeah i thought soo, heres what it saidd "SOMEONE THINKS IM TRYING TO STEEL HIS GIRL MAN ME AND HER ARE OVER MAN I DONT WANT HER (I WANT AND SOON WILL GET (HOPFULY) THE ONE) -BP-ILY" BP= my initials :) you see thatt, the one. what does that meannn? its confusing the eff outta meee :P but hey, im happy with that title :) well i gotta go to sleep happy 100th post guyss :D goodnightt!!

I really dont like where this is going....-Brianna

best friends? yes just best friends. but is he tricking me into cheating...without realizing that were cheating? i mean he always uses the "i doesnt mean anything right? i have a girlfriend, and you have a boyfriend" but is that just what hes telling me to believe him? i mean its nothing like holding hands or kissing, but its little things like giving me his ABC gum, and hugging me tighter and longer than my boyfriend does. its just kinda confusing i guess.. but then i always remember, hes got a girlfriend, ive got a boyfriend that im IN love with, and thats all that matters,then i remember how amazing he is to me and how he'd never do anything like that to me, and i wouldnt do it to himm. today was alrightt i wore a tank top, and i got in trouble for it, cause its "see through" but no one could SEE THROUGH it!!! but anyways, so then i borrowed my friends jacket, then jason gave me his shirtt :) my tank top now smells like himm :) nd after school he tried to kiss me but i didnt take the opportunity :( nd then i went to give him another one but he was turned around so i was like...or nott.. but anyways its alrightt :) haha well i gotta go supervise my sister and her boyfriend and get ready fer school and the dance tomorrow :) adios!!

Giggity Giggity(: - Haley

I'm bored and Nilsa told me to. So I'm blogging again.
>:P I can't believe how fast school is ending.
Just a few days ago, it seemed like forever. And now
its only 2 weeks away. Oh what a shame, stop crying fah!
Its not that serious as CJ would say. =_= I dont think I
will miss that many people. I don't really care much anymore
(: well thats all I'm blogging today! Byee

So, The deed is done! -Nilsa

A couple days ago I broke up with Ryan. Why?
Ohh, ya know. Lots of reasons. The one I told him? That I didn't want to be in a long distance relationship next year. But, you know, he also makes fun of gay people. He also makes fun of 'slow' people. He's also is kinda one of the 'just-like-everybody-else' types. I can't help but think that that's just the way he's been taught though!
All this, and I'm still not over him? Jesus, woman. Get a hold of yourself.

blah blah blah-Brianna

so im in social studies right now. we took an online test and i was second to finish, followed closly by my bud, nilsa :) haha anyways yesterday made me and jason...official :) we stayed after school, we kissed, we talked, we laughed. it was awesome. im staying after school today again nd i think he is too. but the thing thats bothering me is my best friend. shes mad because im going out with him. even though hes whats making me happy. even though hes what takes my mind off of things that cause me pain. but she cant see that. she sees that we broke up nd it failed and he hurt me a little. what boy wont hurt a girl? honestly, i dont like her boyfriend but he makes her happier than anyone could, so i dont tell her anything. you know why? becasue i respect that. but i dont know. i know shes looking out for me but she needs to learn that i need to figure thingso ut myself. if someone tells you not to do something, you do it, and put 10 times as much effort... lunch calls my name. good bye.. ill try to blog later.

New House... New Life? -Nilsa

So we found a new house, and filled out allllll the paperwork for renting it. It's really awesome, actually. It's a little cozy double house with no shared walls. We have our own private yard, plus a shared yard with a firepit (one of my favorite things ever). The best part, although it may sound weird, is that we have a real mailbox all to ourselves. I remember being little and asking my friend's parents if I could check the mail for them because I love the idea of that little cute, semi-cylandrial box. I can't wait.
The main worry? We're downsizing by, literally, 1,000 square feet. Where will I put my clothes?! There is no way that the closet withh fit them all. Our house right now is just so perfect. But it's in a subdivision. That's, for lack of a better distription, total booty.
But hey, I got into the Fine Arts Academy, I got a house. Maybe things will work out. I'm trying my best not to get comfortable.

Mothers Dayy -Brianna

Mothers day was one of the worst best days ever. doesn't make sense? I'll explain. Me and my mom went out to lunch and we just talked. we talked about stuff that's been going on, and we talked about stuff that needed to be talked about. we talked about boys and friends and work and school. then we got home and a while later i got on the phone. to be fair I'll admit, i was on the phone for a very long time. but its mothers day, i thought shed want to have the day to relax. my sister and brother went to the ranch with my grandparents. they got home around 7. i was still on the phone at this point. at like 8:30 or 9 my mom flipped out. yelling at me to call and text my brother to come inside. i texted him and called him. i was on the phone with my best guy friend. my mom called me out there and told me to get off the phone because my sister was missing. i started crying and told Jesus i had to go. as i just stated, i was crying so he was bugging me about what was wrong but i couldn't tell him my mom just started yelling at me and decided to take her frustration out on me. so i told him id tel him todayy. we found my sister. turns out she went for a walk without a phone in the dark, and without asking my mom. she started yelling at us, causing me to of course, cry. then Jason called me. yeahh i was crying and i couldn't talk and he called me. the guy i wanted to talk to i couldn't talk to. it was pretty sadd. but the good part about the day was that me and my mom went out to lunch and i think me and Jason are going back out.

i will always love you. -Brianna

his voice rings in my ear, over and over again. his eyes are in my dreams, night after night. does he feel the same? its hard to tell.is it a phase? i hope so. why? because hes just one of my best friends. hes my number 1 guy best friend. hes the only guy *other than my grandpa and brother* that i trust for life. he admits his mistakes, and is responisble for his actions. hes honest and wise, and never means any harm to anyone. hes sweet, kind, and caring. Hes one of the most immportant things to me right now. he means more to me than he can ever imagine. we plan our life together. were brother and sister. were est friends. and were in love with each other. nd we've admited it. he trusts me more than his girlfriend. he asks me for requests that hed never ask his girlfriend. is that love, or desperation? i dont like the feeling i have in the back of my mind. i love how he talks to me. i love how hes the last person i talk to at night. i love how he tell me "i love you... i love you cause youre the bestest best friend ive ever had" but the feeling in the back of my mind, the thing that snatches me back to reality, the thing that hurts my hear soo much. His girlfriend. although he doesnt act like it, i know he loves her nd he wouldnt break up with her fer me, i know he wont. so is this all cheating? or just two friends who are madly in love, but dont want to risk their friendship?
"i never shoulda let you go... that should be me"

This House -Nilsa

Is it too much to ask to just have one person buy this house??? Dude, I'm trying to think positively here, but I know that it just HAS to be hard for my mom to go from splitting the rent with Carlos every month and paying half the bills to paying for literally EVERYTHING.
I wanna get out of this No-man's-land more that you could believe... almost as much as I want to transfer to PVPA! (Or Hogwarts)! I... I don't want to have to drive 20 minutes before seeing the first real store anymore. I want funky people. I bought my rainbow rain boots... but will I have the nerve to wear them out here?
I've also felt really materialistic lately. I want a camera SO BAD. Like, its ridiculous. I think about it way too much. Ugh.
But unfortunately, that may be put on hold because the garadge door just broke. Again. It's pretty darn frustrating.

mondays... oh mondays... -Brianna

lots happens on Mondays. especially Mondays where you havent seen people fer a whole week and the last thing you tell them is "you know exactly what you did" honestly i could care less about him. hes out of my life. i lost all respect when i found out he cheated on me. i dont have time to waste on people like that. its just pointless. not even as friends. but anywayss. so today he broke up with his girlfriend stating that "theres nothing wrong with you, and theres nothing wrong with me, but it was just a crush" that was after lunch *after fourth period* by 6th period she had a new boyfriend...yeah... who did i tell that she could care less about his two timing ass?? i think i told Nilsa and or Mileena... my point is, he lost the best damn woman, for a trashy little girl. but hey, a sloppy circle is a masterpiece to SOMEONE right? right.anyways, i dont give sympathy to anyone, even in her situation. she should have seen it coming thoughh i mean karma is a b**** after all yes? yes. well gotta go clean cause im going out to dinner with my sister in a bitt :D goodbye :D

"Now I know who you are
You got nothing on me
I see I should have known it from the start
You got nothing on me
Can't tell me lies don't even try
cause this is goodbye"

Best Friend Appreciation Day -Nilsa

So todays the day. That day... the one I wrote up there. Which got me thinking: who is my best friend? Which got me thinking: who are my real friends? Which got me thinking: who should I talk to about Ryan right now? Which, through various numbers of thoughts, somehow got me thinking: what if I am a drama queen? I mean, I hate drama. And unless I'm playing the therapist, I like to stay out of it. But I'm emotional, and, as much as I hate to say it, I'm paranoid. And I like to talk... maybe even as much as I like to listen. But not like, "gossip" talk. I like to have at least one person who I can just tell EVERYTHING. Well, almost everything.
Mainly, I want to tell someone my secret, but it seems like no relationship could ever be so sturdy. Last time I told... stuff went down. I dunno. I should just go sleep or something.