Boundaries- Brianna

I have personal boundaries i set for myself.
Certain topics are off limits to certain people.
My "Sex life", as small as that topic is, i keep that personal,
I hardly ever kiss and tell, and so why would i talk about anything else on that topic?
two of my friends and i got onto that topic a few nights ago and i told them,
cause they told me, so it seemed only fair,
five days later one of them is still teasing me about it,
i told her to hop off, and she got totally pissed,
saying how its not fair that i wont tell her about a certain thing.
Personally, the way i see it,
is that now that its not "that night" i dont have to tell her shit,
correct?
and i havent brought up her sex life since then,
so if im not asking is it fair that she is?
Anddd, if i dont want to talk about something,
dont you think its fair that i can keep it to myself?
The other day when i was sick she texted me
and i told her i was sick and that wed talk later
she texted me asking me about this certain thing,
so i replied "im insanely sick and thats all you can think about?"
Her response?
"Yeah"
Insanely upsetting..
Anyways but its saturday,
i get my ipod today,
I go to San Antonio today,
I have fun.
You should do the same

Simply cause i can- Brianna

So this post can go one of two ways
itll either be really short,
or itll trail on forever :3
probably the second one, but we'll see :D
So i think i had the 24 hour bugg,
it hurt.
i threw up.
and i slept forever.
band camp tomorrow :3
saturday we're going to DCI in San Antonio :3
its gonna be crazy fun.
I remember like forever ago me and Oscar promised to be bus buddies for band and school
good times :3
I kinda had this dream that he sat next to me and said "i dont want to break another promise"
insane right?
So im officially dating Chino, and i have for almost two weeks now.
its going good, i still havent seen him since the movies though,
and that is why i dont date in the summer :3
anyways so i was talking to my mom about it,
and she goes
"oh boy, hes still around? wheres Oscar?"
i just laughed and told her that despite what he said we still dont talk.
she rolled her eyes.
I said
"you just want me to marry him"
She said
"Well Brianna, you're going to. Its predestined."
Maybe shes right
but im hoping shes wrong.
and even if we do, itll end up in a divorce cause he stops talking to me one day :P
Soo i really wanna get my ipod tomorrow after my moms work so i can have it for the tripp
buuuut i dunno if my mom will let me
she wants me to wait until the weekend of my birthday.
how whack yes?
yes.
well i just called her and asked about it
She said she'll take me early Saturday morning :3
Did i already say i got the 24 hour bug?
or food poisoning.
im not sure.
all i know is that i made chicken yesterday for myself and that night i puked,
and puked and puuukkkeeeddd.
i just started feeling better about an hour ago,
but not by muchh.
im eating Mangos :3
well im gonna go ahead and get off
and stretch
and do my ten minutes of crunches.
Yes.
TEN.
10.
non stop.
:D
True story brahh.

Memories- Brianna

I love going back to last years posts and reminiscing.
Like I love reading about what i was doing a year ago to the day.
Is that weird? Well i like it, its kind of comforting, in a weird way :3
well anyways band camp was last week and it was loads of fun(:
on the last day though i pulled a muscle, and it still hurts D:
then again i havent really done anything to help it :3
i tried to do my splits yesterday and it hurt so so sooo bad!
So i guess today thats how ill be spending my day,
looking up home remedies on pulled muscles.
and stretching.
and TCSO :D
back to band camp.
I have it this week again but just Friday and Saturday, so im really excited :D
then we get one week off, then all of August is band camp :D
I love the excuse of having something to do.
I dont know, maybe im just a total loser :3
So my lifes kind of blan right now,
But honestly, ive got nothing better to do with my time right now -.-
so im gonna go ahead and stop noww :3

My Life... -Brianna

IS so complicated.
And Crazy.
and busy.
and stressful.
So that is why...
I might go to NYC in two weeks :3
and in two years, as my "senior trip" (since im gonna skip a grade)
I will be going on a tour of Europe!!!
And its crazy cause ive been so down lately, and i got invited to do this Sunday.
and its just... ahh(:
it couldnt have come at a more perfect time for me <3
so my flight for new york is my birthday present from my mummmm(:
Its only a 6 day trip buuut stilll (:
ill be with my bestest friend Casey <3
Anyways so Europe !!!!
We'll start out by staying in Germany for a while, Then head to Spain, then...
I T A L Y !!
I always talked about going to Italy as my senior trip, like just by myself before i go for college right?
well im really excited about it.
im getting my passport early 2012 cause i know it takes a while to get it so yeahh :)
I have band camp for the rest of this week and im super excited cause its so much fun.
Marching season is my favorite <3
My uncle from Cali is coming down here T O N I G H T !
Im dating Chino officially as of July 10th :3
Me and Shelby (my reaaallllyyyy amazing best friend/sister :D) have the same anniversary :3
Ahh its her first boyfriend so im really excited for her(:
Me on the other hand? this is my 5th, and i hope its different than the restt.
Hes a good guy so im happy(:
anyways i gotta go book my flight for NYC! (:
Goodbyeee <333
P.S. Guess whos getting her ipod replaced soon? (: <3

Movies.- Brianna

So last night i went to the movies with
Shelby, Lexi, Juan (Chino), D'Angelo, Fernando (Nando), Antonio, and... Oscar.
It was a lot of fun, the movie was good and I flirted here and there.
After the movie we went out to eat at a pizzeria and after that we went to a play ground :3
There was good and bad last night.
I'll talk about the bad first, simply cause its the one that affected me the most.
Oscar and Lexi kept making out during the movie,
and i was only one seat away.
Well... back in February there was a big deal with Oscar and I never blogged about it because i just wanted to forget about it. But I think its time i get it off my chest.
Theres a ditch by my house and we kind of called it "out spot".
There was this one time he came over and we went out there.
He kept kissing my neck and i tried to get him off but he wouldnt and he begged me to let him.
and i felt like i owed it to him... why?
I dont know.... but i did. so i let him.
Anyways not even two months later we had completely stopped talking.
and i think thats why.
Anyways while we were there i had such a terrible feeling in my stomach i mean i wanted to puke and when we got home i coldnt even make eye contact with him. It was just so terrible.
To try to forget about it i wrote a story about it and it didnt help.
but anyways so them making out next to me just reminded me of that night,
and i got the same feeling in my tummy. I left the theater three times because i felt like i was going to puke.
Anyways so after the movie, everyone wanted to go to Which Wich... where oscar and i had our first date.
I told everyone they could go and that ill just meet them at the pizzeria but everyone just ended up going with me to the pizzeria.
so after Oscar and Chino left we actually ended up going into Which Wich.
My heart like sank.'It was so terrible.
but i put up with it cause i had to.
So on top of all of this, Oscar never said a word to me.
And even though i told myself i didnt want him to,
i really wish he wouldve.
Like if he could just acknowledge the fact that he hurt me... ?
Errr hes a boy i cant expect much right?
Enough about the bad cause im starting to feel down again, and its only noon.
During the movie Chino sat next to me, and ive kinda liked him for a bit now.
Hes been my "boyfriend" for two months and ive liked him for like 2-3 weeks.
well anyways he was totally flirting with me during the movie, but like the "Tease" i am, id push him off me only so i could be all over him and then stop and then repeat.
im not gonna lie, it was a lot of fun just flirting, like not caring, and just doing.
At the pizzeria he sat next to me again and again we flirted.
He also held my hand :3
So he owed me a kiss from a bet we had but he never gave it to me, when i got home he told me it was cause he didnt want everyone to see us.
i think thats really cute that hes shy.
He also told me he had a surprise for me, so at the play ground i asked him for it but he said he wanted mine first.
It was just a kiss.
so i tried to get us alone where no one would watch, but with out friends, its kind of impossible :3
anyways so He ended up leaving before i got mine and he got his.
When i texted him asking about it he told me.
He asked me out :)
I was reaally happy but...
I dont date in the summer.
its one of my many rules :3
so i told him that i really do like him but i dont date in the summer.
and he was really okay with it, and that made me even happier.
he said "Okay amor but just know when school starts you're mine(:"
Like i liked that he didnt question me about it or take it back
Haha :3
So he got bonus points for being shy and okay with my rule.
The reason he didnt ask me at the park?
"i wanted to ask you when we were alone"
:)
Hes so adorable.
So i have band camp in four days and im pretty excited.
Thursday practices have ended so its just the three band camps we have this summer.
So yeah im ready :3
My cousin/really close friend Julianna came to visit us :3
I hadnt seen her in almost 6 years, and i missed her like crazy!
Shes a month older than me, and we've known each other since i was born.
So moving really sucked.
buuut my point is she came for a few days and it was a blast!
She came over the first day she was here, the second we threw her an early surprise birthday party, tuesday she went to Shliterbahn, Wednesday we had this party until like 1 in the morning, then thursday she left.
I missed her loads and it was amazing seeing her again!
Shes so beautiful.
Secretly, its because of her that ive always wanted to be a dancer :3
We did that and gymnastics together growing up so yeahh :3
anyways so yeah i had a blast and our friendship picked up where it last ended back in Cali
I had a good time at the movies over all,
And my summers going pretty great.
Soo thats all you need to know for noww :3
P.S. this is the second most comforting thing to me, i mean writing and all, thats the whole reason im turning that story i talked about ^^ up thurrr, into a movie :3
We start shooting in December ish :D KayThanksBye (:

I'm really missing him today... -Brianna

Oscar.
Today i went out to where we had our first date and it was terrible
i wanted to cry so badly, my eyes kept watering and i realized that im missing him.
Why is it so hard for me to just forget about him?
Then on the way home, You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift came on the radio and my mom asks
"Hey so whats going on with you and Oscar?"
Like today of all days, she asks today,
the first day ive thought about him in almost a month!
I replied
"well i deleted his number... we dont talk any more"
What she said?
"Brianna... You're gonna marry that boy i swear."
It just made me miss him a little more you know?
Like i miss him so much i just wanna like cuddle with Hollywood and stay there for forever :/
Well im going out tonight and hopefully ill get over this.
My really close friend from California is coming down tomorrow for a few days and im really excited to see her.
Shes a month older than me, and our parents have known each other for 16 ish years,
which means we've known each other our whole lives.
Anyways i havent seen her in just about 6 years,
so yeahh i get to see her tomorrow and stuff.
so yeah im going know cause i dont wanna cry any moree -.-
Good bye bloggg.
Until something like this happens again :3
P.s. I hope you're enjoying your summer. <3

Awww - Lauren

So last night I was sleeping over with my friend Leia, and we ended up watching 'scary' movies (which I never do, I find them stupid.) But she likes them, so we were. We watched The Last Exorcist, which was fine but lame, and then we put in The Ring, and for the first time in my life I was actually disturbed by a movie. Of course by the time it finished it was around one and Leia had been asleep about an hour. I felt like a total chicken for being creeped out, but I couldn't sleep, so I was texting John. I eventually fell asleep, but I kept rolling over and waking up every so often, but around 4 AM I woke up and happened to look at my phone, which had a text from John. I hid it under the blanket as to not wake Leia and loaded the messages... And this is what I had.

My Darling Love Lauren: Soft and warm Sealed with care Sweet and kind Will ever share Brave and strong Yet so fair That is her She's always there Sensitive To despair Harkens to others Welfare Delicate she's elsewhere Beautiful Beyond compare if you meet her Best Beware She'll steal your heart unaware Her name is love This I swear There's none like her Anywhere
Love you baby ;)


I read it over and over and I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, and needless to say when I read it and fell back asleep I had no more creeping nightmares. <3