So last night i got no sleep.
well five hours, but thats nothing compared to the long day ahead of me.
anyways i went to bed at 9 woke up at 2
i had a text from oscar so i replied to it hoping hed text me back.
why? i couldnt sleep x)
anyways even though i wanted him to, i doubted that it would happen.
to my surprise ten minutes later he did reply.
we texted til about 5:30
then he said he was going to sleep x)
anyways so i havent been able to sleep since then,
and so im uberly glad its late start so that im not rushing at all.
the things we talked about you wonder?
Well we talked about our kids, Annalise and Alfredo Jiames Perez :P
And we talked about the far future,
and we told each other stories,
then we talked about how hes gonna get fired from him job because he puked on his bosses shoes cause i made him drink a lot the night before,
then we talked about wht would happen if we were married, then we talked about his uncle, then making him unshy, and then, the sweet comments came in.
"banana berry? <3 im holding my blanket really tight" (insider)
"ily banana berry. i jst wanna sleep w u"
"next time we hang out, or date, or whatever lets just devote like 2 hours to 'leeping? plz(: i just wanna sleep and dream with you"
"lolol! i wanna be holding you when we 'leep"
And then, the Spanish came in <3333333
"Brianna?" Te quiero aqui conmigo"
"yo quiero sonar contiho. yo me quiero dormir abrasondote"
and then he went to bed x)
its all really sweet and flattering x)
anyways, i have homework to finish before school x)
Monday, January 31, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Japaan much? -Haley
Hey blooog(:
Well Ive had one of the best days I feel so productive. I went to my meeting and I had sooo much fun. I met so many new people and learned a lot of things for my trip to Japan in 5 months! Me and Savanna are still friends and I met Kourtney, which I have to say, she is pretty amazing. I finished all of my quizzes and finally got my travel journal. I feel like time is finally moving ! and as for me and Chaiya, we hit a little bump in the road but other than that we're pretty good. I've decided not to get on facebook more than 3 times in a day excluding my phone, because i need to learn all the Japanese I can learn! and pass all my classes and pass TAKS and go to Japan~ I have a lot to do with the project fair, passport, moving, school work, friends, boyfriend, keeping up with the emails and things that are due in order for me to go to Japan. Waah I feel good, having a lot to do. I like this feeling. Well sayonara for now, Blog
Arigato Gozaimasu (:
Oyasumi o motte !
Ja Matta Ne
Well Ive had one of the best days I feel so productive. I went to my meeting and I had sooo much fun. I met so many new people and learned a lot of things for my trip to Japan in 5 months! Me and Savanna are still friends and I met Kourtney, which I have to say, she is pretty amazing. I finished all of my quizzes and finally got my travel journal. I feel like time is finally moving ! and as for me and Chaiya, we hit a little bump in the road but other than that we're pretty good. I've decided not to get on facebook more than 3 times in a day excluding my phone, because i need to learn all the Japanese I can learn! and pass all my classes and pass TAKS and go to Japan~ I have a lot to do with the project fair, passport, moving, school work, friends, boyfriend, keeping up with the emails and things that are due in order for me to go to Japan. Waah I feel good, having a lot to do. I like this feeling. Well sayonara for now, Blog
Arigato Gozaimasu (:
Oyasumi o motte !
Ja Matta Ne
Okay So- Brianna
So a lot happened this week.
Me and Oscar broke up,
projects were started
projects were due,
i saw my two best friends two days in a row,
and i realized how much i miss them like crazy.
Okay so Oscar and I broke up on Monday morning.
It was really mutual, but i brought it up.
The thing I told him was that
I'd rather lose him now as a boyfriend,
than get into a fight about something stupid,
and never talk to him again.
You know?
But now that I think about it,
I shouldn't have done it.
We're so perfect for each other that like it was really stupid to have broken up
even my mom said that the next time he comes over shes going to sit us down and tell us how stupid we are for braking up.
But regardless,
now we're even closer than before,
and with the conversation we had last night,
I have a feeling we're going to get back together.
It was a really nice conversation.
It was literally about nothing, and everything at the same time.
You know?
Well anyways, for now, My best friend remains my best friend and nothing more.
We'll we started a geometry project this week.
I like my partners, Aaron and Caleb.
Aaron: i used to have a crush on last year :P thinking back its quiet funny.
Caleb: hes pretty cute, and funny, but egh, not my type.
anyways, i think ill do good working with them, which will hopefully keep my grade in there above a 90 and maybe this 6 weeks ill have an A(:
my Psycho-Tech Writing project was due.
as a group we got a 98
oral communication i got a 92.
not to bad i suppose, but it could be better.
I'm anxious to see my grades for this progress report x)
Im really trying to focus on school.
And its not as hard as i thought it would be.
Like before id be like
"well no big deal at least im not failing"
but now i really wanna try to get straight A's
Just to prove to myself that I can do it.
Anyways.
So Decker had their auditions for the one act play this year on Tuesday.
That morning i texted my two favorite people ever and wished them luck on auditions.
Little did they know that id be there for them supporting them.
I went to Decker after school to surprise everyone.
Seeing them again felt soo amazing.
Like being able to actually hug them and see them,
it was just great.
I miss them more now that i dont see them though.
Like on Thursday morning i thought to myself
" Oh well brianna, this is your life now. Dont get to used to seeing them. Not for another two weeks at least"
it sucks a little but i know that in 7 months for sure one of them will be with me at new tech.
Well that has been my life for the past week
I hope you enjoyed it :P
Me and Oscar broke up,
projects were started
projects were due,
i saw my two best friends two days in a row,
and i realized how much i miss them like crazy.
Okay so Oscar and I broke up on Monday morning.
It was really mutual, but i brought it up.
The thing I told him was that
I'd rather lose him now as a boyfriend,
than get into a fight about something stupid,
and never talk to him again.
You know?
But now that I think about it,
I shouldn't have done it.
We're so perfect for each other that like it was really stupid to have broken up
even my mom said that the next time he comes over shes going to sit us down and tell us how stupid we are for braking up.
But regardless,
now we're even closer than before,
and with the conversation we had last night,
I have a feeling we're going to get back together.
It was a really nice conversation.
It was literally about nothing, and everything at the same time.
You know?
Well anyways, for now, My best friend remains my best friend and nothing more.
We'll we started a geometry project this week.
I like my partners, Aaron and Caleb.
Aaron: i used to have a crush on last year :P thinking back its quiet funny.
Caleb: hes pretty cute, and funny, but egh, not my type.
anyways, i think ill do good working with them, which will hopefully keep my grade in there above a 90 and maybe this 6 weeks ill have an A(:
my Psycho-Tech Writing project was due.
as a group we got a 98
oral communication i got a 92.
not to bad i suppose, but it could be better.
I'm anxious to see my grades for this progress report x)
Im really trying to focus on school.
And its not as hard as i thought it would be.
Like before id be like
"well no big deal at least im not failing"
but now i really wanna try to get straight A's
Just to prove to myself that I can do it.
Anyways.
So Decker had their auditions for the one act play this year on Tuesday.
That morning i texted my two favorite people ever and wished them luck on auditions.
Little did they know that id be there for them supporting them.
I went to Decker after school to surprise everyone.
Seeing them again felt soo amazing.
Like being able to actually hug them and see them,
it was just great.
I miss them more now that i dont see them though.
Like on Thursday morning i thought to myself
" Oh well brianna, this is your life now. Dont get to used to seeing them. Not for another two weeks at least"
it sucks a little but i know that in 7 months for sure one of them will be with me at new tech.
Well that has been my life for the past week
I hope you enjoyed it :P
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Oscar, Oh Oscar- Brianna(:
So weve only been dating 3 days,
but i love where our relationship is going.
We're still best friends,
but we add that little ingredient to our recipe that spices it up
you know?(:
Like i know him better than he knows himself,
and he knows me better than i know myself
and its simply because hes my best friend
not because hes my boyfriend
and not because weve been dating for 3 days,
and have been on dates,
and...no, its none of that,
its because hes my best friend,
and im really glad im dating him,
like i never noticed this but,
i dont like to be in bad moods around him.
ever.
theres been ONCE when i asked him not to tell me about his bad day cause i was in a horrible mood,
i gave in and let him tell me, and he ended up making me smile at the end of it,
and today i was in on so so mood, and he made it better,
just by making a stupid comment (:
He very sweet.
very polite,
so much sweeter than any of the other guys ive dated,
and were taking things slow and i like it!
maybe its just because of the distance,
but i like not making out with him after only a day of dating,
i like not being all over him,
i like having stories to tell him,
and hearing his stories
and not being like "yeah i was there"
You know?
every day its something new and i like it(:
So before he goes into the school building he texts me,
tells me hes leaving,
and turns off his phone until he gets home,
well today durring his lunch he texted me saying something along the lines of
"Banana Berry(: I'm at lunch, hope youre having a good day! Muah! Talk to you at 3:35(:"
The little efforts he makes you know?
and anyways, so after he texts me his "gtg to school berry ttyl!"
i text him back saying "okay have a good day ttyl" blah blah blah right?
well he told me that he turns off his phone before i reply so that when he turns it on, he has a text from me to read(:
Everyday.
Tell me thats not the sweetest thing ever(:
so yeah,
were still in that phase crossing from best friends to
boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Hopefully our February date helps just a bit(:
but i love where our relationship is going.
We're still best friends,
but we add that little ingredient to our recipe that spices it up
you know?(:
Like i know him better than he knows himself,
and he knows me better than i know myself
and its simply because hes my best friend
not because hes my boyfriend
and not because weve been dating for 3 days,
and have been on dates,
and...no, its none of that,
its because hes my best friend,
and im really glad im dating him,
like i never noticed this but,
i dont like to be in bad moods around him.
ever.
theres been ONCE when i asked him not to tell me about his bad day cause i was in a horrible mood,
i gave in and let him tell me, and he ended up making me smile at the end of it,
and today i was in on so so mood, and he made it better,
just by making a stupid comment (:
He very sweet.
very polite,
so much sweeter than any of the other guys ive dated,
and were taking things slow and i like it!
maybe its just because of the distance,
but i like not making out with him after only a day of dating,
i like not being all over him,
i like having stories to tell him,
and hearing his stories
and not being like "yeah i was there"
You know?
every day its something new and i like it(:
So before he goes into the school building he texts me,
tells me hes leaving,
and turns off his phone until he gets home,
well today durring his lunch he texted me saying something along the lines of
"Banana Berry(: I'm at lunch, hope youre having a good day! Muah! Talk to you at 3:35(:"
The little efforts he makes you know?
and anyways, so after he texts me his "gtg to school berry ttyl!"
i text him back saying "okay have a good day ttyl" blah blah blah right?
well he told me that he turns off his phone before i reply so that when he turns it on, he has a text from me to read(:
Everyday.
Tell me thats not the sweetest thing ever(:
so yeah,
were still in that phase crossing from best friends to
boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Hopefully our February date helps just a bit(:
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
day 2- Brianna
Second day dating Oscar.
Its starting to feel different,
Like more of a couple than just friends
you know?
It'll get there soon(:
Well just thought id update.
KBye Guys(:
Oh P.S. He keeps calling me girlfriend(:
I think thats pretty cuuute x)
Its starting to feel different,
Like more of a couple than just friends
you know?
It'll get there soon(:
Well just thought id update.
KBye Guys(:
Oh P.S. He keeps calling me girlfriend(:
I think thats pretty cuuute x)
Monday, January 17, 2011
My First Kiss... I feel like such a girl - Lauren
So uh... Guess what happened to me last night. Yeah. That's right. Somebody kissed me.
I was at the scare brainstorm meeting early, so I was sitting alone and reading, and as people showed up John came over and joined me, saying I looked lonely. I was reading and thinking about my last post, so I wasn't really up for too much company, but I welcomed his, he's always nice to hang out with. We talked for a while till the meeting was just about to start, then we got up, wandered a bit, then sat down again. The moment I sat down I was flanked by Charity and Montanna - they smooshed in against my sides and said I looked lonely. John considered for a moment, then took off his jacket and laid it against my legs which were folded against me, and used them as a back rest. I felt completely trapped and squashed - but not in a bad way. I felt loved. ^_^
So after a while of meeting Jarrett called a 5 minute break, which lasted more like 15, and we all got up, stretched, and walked around some. During this time Rowan grabbed my hand and pulled me into the hallway. She asked me if I liked John, and when I responded after a moment of thought that I didn't know she told me that she was pretty sure he liked me. I got all embarrassed and shook my head; I didn't really believe it and just kind of wrote it off. When we went to sit back down Montanna took up her seat, but John stole Charity's on my side, and after some failed convincing John to move she took his on my knees. We kept talking in whispers through some boring presentations by some less than fascinating characters, so we had to be close otherwise we wouldn't hear each other. Then.... Out of the blue he just leaned over and kissed me.
I was totally caught by surprise, and didn't really react, but when he pulled away with this really worried look in his eye I smiled really shyly because inside I was flipping out in what seemed like slow motion and scooted a little, then laid my head on his shoulder. He kind of muttered something under his breath and when I asked him what he said he did the whole "I didn't say anything" thing, and when I finally got him to tell me he looked all embarrassed and said I was really pretty - and when I was all embarrassed and said thank you, he kissed me again. This time I kissed him back. It was really nice... not exactly what I expected. I never expected my first kiss to be squashed under Charity and up against Montanna, I never expected it to be him, I never expected it to happen in a scare meeting hiding in the corner, I honestly had no idea what to expect about what it felt like... but it was definitely worth it.
When we pulled away he took my hand in his and gave me this really cute shy smile, and we settled in to watch the rest of the rather strange presentation.
We pretty much spent the rest of the time hanging out together, holding hands with the occasional stolen kiss or my head on his shoulder, kind of bouncing from group to group once it was over and everyone was wandering and hanging out. At one point when we weren't holding hands and Charity apparently just noticed things she dragged me aside and asked me if I liked him (To which I responded I think I did), because he had a huge crush on me, she could tell, and told me that she was pretty sure he was about as shy as I was and if I didn't ask him out she was going to tell him for me. I'm not sure how she managed to miss everything that was going on considering she was lying on my knees when it happened; I guess she was really focused. but yeah... We kept trying to escape his parents so they wouldn't make him leave, it was amusing. Rowan at one point ran up and glomped onto both of us announcing that we were "soooo cute!" and dashed off again, my brother just kind of reacted like... Oh now? What is this? ^_^;; Dork.
But yeah. I feel awesome. My tummy is all full of butterflies and my face is way too hot, but this was exactly what I needed to pull me out of the rut I had been in. I feel so much better about life... And I feel kind of ridiculous for it, but I do.
He wants me to go to Jarrett's overnight Paintball extravaganza birthday party... thing. It's on Jarrett's parent's ranch and everybody from scare was invited. I really want to go. I don't play paintball, but plenty of people go to watch. ^///^
Even if nothing comes of this I'm glad it happened... at the very least I know someone was interested in me enough to try. Which I didn't believe before now would ever happen.
He didn't exactly ask me out... but I'm honestly hoping he will. I do think I like him, despite thinking I'd never like someone shorter than me, I guess I proved myself wrong. ^///^
So thank you John Ilger.
And I like you too. :)
I was at the scare brainstorm meeting early, so I was sitting alone and reading, and as people showed up John came over and joined me, saying I looked lonely. I was reading and thinking about my last post, so I wasn't really up for too much company, but I welcomed his, he's always nice to hang out with. We talked for a while till the meeting was just about to start, then we got up, wandered a bit, then sat down again. The moment I sat down I was flanked by Charity and Montanna - they smooshed in against my sides and said I looked lonely. John considered for a moment, then took off his jacket and laid it against my legs which were folded against me, and used them as a back rest. I felt completely trapped and squashed - but not in a bad way. I felt loved. ^_^
So after a while of meeting Jarrett called a 5 minute break, which lasted more like 15, and we all got up, stretched, and walked around some. During this time Rowan grabbed my hand and pulled me into the hallway. She asked me if I liked John, and when I responded after a moment of thought that I didn't know she told me that she was pretty sure he liked me. I got all embarrassed and shook my head; I didn't really believe it and just kind of wrote it off. When we went to sit back down Montanna took up her seat, but John stole Charity's on my side, and after some failed convincing John to move she took his on my knees. We kept talking in whispers through some boring presentations by some less than fascinating characters, so we had to be close otherwise we wouldn't hear each other. Then.... Out of the blue he just leaned over and kissed me.
I was totally caught by surprise, and didn't really react, but when he pulled away with this really worried look in his eye I smiled really shyly because inside I was flipping out in what seemed like slow motion and scooted a little, then laid my head on his shoulder. He kind of muttered something under his breath and when I asked him what he said he did the whole "I didn't say anything" thing, and when I finally got him to tell me he looked all embarrassed and said I was really pretty - and when I was all embarrassed and said thank you, he kissed me again. This time I kissed him back. It was really nice... not exactly what I expected. I never expected my first kiss to be squashed under Charity and up against Montanna, I never expected it to be him, I never expected it to happen in a scare meeting hiding in the corner, I honestly had no idea what to expect about what it felt like... but it was definitely worth it.
When we pulled away he took my hand in his and gave me this really cute shy smile, and we settled in to watch the rest of the rather strange presentation.
We pretty much spent the rest of the time hanging out together, holding hands with the occasional stolen kiss or my head on his shoulder, kind of bouncing from group to group once it was over and everyone was wandering and hanging out. At one point when we weren't holding hands and Charity apparently just noticed things she dragged me aside and asked me if I liked him (To which I responded I think I did), because he had a huge crush on me, she could tell, and told me that she was pretty sure he was about as shy as I was and if I didn't ask him out she was going to tell him for me. I'm not sure how she managed to miss everything that was going on considering she was lying on my knees when it happened; I guess she was really focused. but yeah... We kept trying to escape his parents so they wouldn't make him leave, it was amusing. Rowan at one point ran up and glomped onto both of us announcing that we were "soooo cute!" and dashed off again, my brother just kind of reacted like... Oh now? What is this? ^_^;; Dork.
But yeah. I feel awesome. My tummy is all full of butterflies and my face is way too hot, but this was exactly what I needed to pull me out of the rut I had been in. I feel so much better about life... And I feel kind of ridiculous for it, but I do.
He wants me to go to Jarrett's overnight Paintball extravaganza birthday party... thing. It's on Jarrett's parent's ranch and everybody from scare was invited. I really want to go. I don't play paintball, but plenty of people go to watch. ^///^
Even if nothing comes of this I'm glad it happened... at the very least I know someone was interested in me enough to try. Which I didn't believe before now would ever happen.
He didn't exactly ask me out... but I'm honestly hoping he will. I do think I like him, despite thinking I'd never like someone shorter than me, I guess I proved myself wrong. ^///^
So thank you John Ilger.
And I like you too. :)
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Im...-Brianna
Im dating my best friend..
i dont know what else to say.
am i surprised?
not at all.
did i expect it to happen this soon?
no.
its hard to explain how it happened too..
it was soo.. difficult.
like we talked about dating,
we both said no
then he started thinking for a while
next thing i hear him say
"Kiss me again"
i replied "Oscar no we both agreed not to right?"
Then he hugged me and went for my neck.
I pushed him off a little saying no,
he said "please just one more"
and so we did.
he pulled out,
and with a confused face asks,
"Will you go out with me?"
it was actually really cute in a way.
later he told me what he was thinking about.
his ex.
most recent one.
said that after their second date he realized he had feelings for her, and so thats why he asked me to kiss him(:
Then after i did he realized he liked me.
Ah, as if out of a fairytale(:
God i loved our 8 and a half hour date :P
hehehe(:
i dont know what else to say.
am i surprised?
not at all.
did i expect it to happen this soon?
no.
its hard to explain how it happened too..
it was soo.. difficult.
like we talked about dating,
we both said no
then he started thinking for a while
next thing i hear him say
"Kiss me again"
i replied "Oscar no we both agreed not to right?"
Then he hugged me and went for my neck.
I pushed him off a little saying no,
he said "please just one more"
and so we did.
he pulled out,
and with a confused face asks,
"Will you go out with me?"
it was actually really cute in a way.
later he told me what he was thinking about.
his ex.
most recent one.
said that after their second date he realized he had feelings for her, and so thats why he asked me to kiss him(:
Then after i did he realized he liked me.
Ah, as if out of a fairytale(:
God i loved our 8 and a half hour date :P
hehehe(:
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Oy - My brother. >< - Lauren
So my brother is now that guy.
The emo kid who pierces his own ears in the bathroom With a safety pin and hides them under h
his hair.
The stoner who can't go more than a couple hours without smoking.
The obnoxious teen who hides everything from his family.
Yet he's either really dumb, or somewhere in there he wants to be Jimbo instead of James, he wants to tell his family and be the good kid again. He wants to be found out. Otherwise he wouldn't smoke in his closed room, he wouldn't pierce his ears and leave the blood in the sink. He wouldn't tell me the same lie every time he's out because he'd know I'll check with Johnny because we're kindof friends too and he'd realize Johnny would tell me Jim hasn't been with him.
I'm not sure what he expects... But especially when he and dad move into a much smaller space together when I move out... Nothing is staying secret. I'm not sure what to do... I think that there's two reasons i haven't told dad. One, I'm not sure his methods are helping. Two... Sam made me promise not to meddle... And while she may not care about our friendship anymore... I still care and keep my promises to her. Even the dumb ones. She made me promise when she left not to raise the roof until she got back. Guess what I haven't done? Even if her promises to me don't mean shit to her I still care enough to keep mine, and if that means I don't raise the roof till the day that I die then so be it.
And I won't meddle... No matter how much it sucks... I have to believe staying out of the middle and as far out of this mess as I can is for the best.
I hope keeping my promises doesn't bite me in the ass.
The emo kid who pierces his own ears in the bathroom With a safety pin and hides them under h
his hair.
The stoner who can't go more than a couple hours without smoking.
The obnoxious teen who hides everything from his family.
Yet he's either really dumb, or somewhere in there he wants to be Jimbo instead of James, he wants to tell his family and be the good kid again. He wants to be found out. Otherwise he wouldn't smoke in his closed room, he wouldn't pierce his ears and leave the blood in the sink. He wouldn't tell me the same lie every time he's out because he'd know I'll check with Johnny because we're kindof friends too and he'd realize Johnny would tell me Jim hasn't been with him.
I'm not sure what he expects... But especially when he and dad move into a much smaller space together when I move out... Nothing is staying secret. I'm not sure what to do... I think that there's two reasons i haven't told dad. One, I'm not sure his methods are helping. Two... Sam made me promise not to meddle... And while she may not care about our friendship anymore... I still care and keep my promises to her. Even the dumb ones. She made me promise when she left not to raise the roof until she got back. Guess what I haven't done? Even if her promises to me don't mean shit to her I still care enough to keep mine, and if that means I don't raise the roof till the day that I die then so be it.
And I won't meddle... No matter how much it sucks... I have to believe staying out of the middle and as far out of this mess as I can is for the best.
I hope keeping my promises doesn't bite me in the ass.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Im pretty dissapointed-Brianna
Me and Oscar planned this reeeaally cute date for saturday.
Me him my house, cuddling couch, blankets, movie marathon, hot chocolate, and blankets.
Cute right?
Especially for a second date x)
Well guess what?
Plans ruined.
Moms making me go to a party.
All honesty, none of us wanna go.
Especially me.
Considering I never see Oscar,
and we have the opportunity then,
but i cant.
it sucks.
we were gonna chill from 3 to 11 because he wanted me to tell all my friends
that hes been the only boy to stay that late.
I told him about how marcos came over from 4 to 10
and that that was the longest.
He said "lets break that record :D"
He wanted to have a special title i guess.
Mhh, its only tuesday though, i only have to know by 2 on saturday so ive got time
to convince her otherwise.
God i really hope we can hang because this is the only weekend this month that id be able to,
but not that i have that party, it looks like were really gonna have to wait til February.
Yeah thats how pathetic this is.
my next free weekend? 2-12-11.
Every weekend from now til then is booked.
Blah. I just reaaally need this day with him.
Our last date was the 20th of December,
this one would be the 15th, which is clsoe enough to the 20th
see what were doing?
Once a month we go on a date.
Kind of like an anniversary.
Just...Not.
Okay so this might sound..pathetic?
but, a sevie told him she loved him.
he doesn't like her.
but... im feeling just the tiniest of intimidation.
They see each other every day, who knows maybe hell feel the same?
Goodness thats more pathetic than i thought it would sound....
Well its official.
I need a high school life.
Get over my middle school one cause its never gonna be the same.
Ever.
my friends are different, the works harder, the time is spent differently,
everythings different.
i just have the slightest hope that next year will be much better with all the cavis that are coming in.
Me him my house, cuddling couch, blankets, movie marathon, hot chocolate, and blankets.
Cute right?
Especially for a second date x)
Well guess what?
Plans ruined.
Moms making me go to a party.
All honesty, none of us wanna go.
Especially me.
Considering I never see Oscar,
and we have the opportunity then,
but i cant.
it sucks.
we were gonna chill from 3 to 11 because he wanted me to tell all my friends
that hes been the only boy to stay that late.
I told him about how marcos came over from 4 to 10
and that that was the longest.
He said "lets break that record :D"
He wanted to have a special title i guess.
Mhh, its only tuesday though, i only have to know by 2 on saturday so ive got time
to convince her otherwise.
God i really hope we can hang because this is the only weekend this month that id be able to,
but not that i have that party, it looks like were really gonna have to wait til February.
Yeah thats how pathetic this is.
my next free weekend? 2-12-11.
Every weekend from now til then is booked.
Blah. I just reaaally need this day with him.
Our last date was the 20th of December,
this one would be the 15th, which is clsoe enough to the 20th
see what were doing?
Once a month we go on a date.
Kind of like an anniversary.
Just...Not.
Okay so this might sound..pathetic?
but, a sevie told him she loved him.
he doesn't like her.
but... im feeling just the tiniest of intimidation.
They see each other every day, who knows maybe hell feel the same?
Goodness thats more pathetic than i thought it would sound....
Well its official.
I need a high school life.
Get over my middle school one cause its never gonna be the same.
Ever.
my friends are different, the works harder, the time is spent differently,
everythings different.
i just have the slightest hope that next year will be much better with all the cavis that are coming in.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Mhhh(: 2011-Brianna
God I love 2011 (:
I feel like everything's falling into place for me.
Minus my grades,
well for now at least.
Like I'm figuring out who my real friends are,
getting rid of the ones who don't matter,
getting OVER, I mean completely over, a senior,
Semi dating my best friend,
getting the new Ipod touch,
and joining TCSOE.
Okay so my grades aren't the best right now,
but its because teachers never put in grades and so the little we have,
doesn't count for much.
But I promised myself that I would get them up,
so thats my goal for next report card.
Real Friends: Oscar, Lexi, Nilsa, Casey, Paulina, Mark
I love these people <3
they mean the world to me,i know i can count on them for everythingg(:
like at the beginning of the year i was really scared and didnt know many people
so now that its January, I know who to trust and who not to.
The people im getting rid of: Oh my, theres so many of them.
Its crazy how one day you're best friends
and the nex you don't even talk.
High school is where you meet all the fake people.
It's so hard to find people who follow their own rules,
and dont act like a little puppy.
I'm glad the friends i have are my lucky few(:
Over the senior: :D Yep im pretty proud of myself.
Nothing there anymore.
Im guessing it really was just flattering that he was a senior.
Mhh(: Its a good feeling cause now i know what to do with Oscar.
Anyways so hes dating this freshman, and i dont know, its esxciting to see them together.
I guess theyre just that cute :P
Dating my best friend?! Yes.
Sort of.
Gosh its crazy.
The only thing thats stopping us from being official is the fact that we both flirt a lot.
I dont know if were gonna get together in these next 8 months,
but Sophomore year, yeah im pretty excited to see what happens between us.
But theres a few things that are making me...hesitant i suppose.
1. BEST. FRIENDS.
it never works out with best friends.
Well not usually.
2. BEST. FRIENDS.
what happens if we break up and things change? completely?
I hate using this example but: Martin.
it was a total 180 for us.
i dont want that with Oscar.
3. Distance.
Right now. thats whats holding us back.
4. Flirtyness
Again, just temporary.
5. Lexi.
Lexi. my cavi. i love her to death but,
i think she likes him STILL.
im not sure about him, but you know?
shes a close friend and shes sensitive,
if i do something like date oscar, shell go off.
So many things to risk..
But, in my opinion,
to see if theres anything between us, id be willing to risk most of it.
Ipod. 8 gig. 4th g. 2 cameras. Facetime. Yep its mine. As of last night x)
TCSOE
Travis County Sheriffs Office Explorers.
Basically they teach you 80% of things officers do x)
pretty cool huh?(:
I feel like everything's falling into place for me.
Minus my grades,
well for now at least.
Like I'm figuring out who my real friends are,
getting rid of the ones who don't matter,
getting OVER, I mean completely over, a senior,
Semi dating my best friend,
getting the new Ipod touch,
and joining TCSOE.
Okay so my grades aren't the best right now,
but its because teachers never put in grades and so the little we have,
doesn't count for much.
But I promised myself that I would get them up,
so thats my goal for next report card.
Real Friends: Oscar, Lexi, Nilsa, Casey, Paulina, Mark
I love these people <3
they mean the world to me,i know i can count on them for everythingg(:
like at the beginning of the year i was really scared and didnt know many people
so now that its January, I know who to trust and who not to.
The people im getting rid of: Oh my, theres so many of them.
Its crazy how one day you're best friends
and the nex you don't even talk.
High school is where you meet all the fake people.
It's so hard to find people who follow their own rules,
and dont act like a little puppy.
I'm glad the friends i have are my lucky few(:
Over the senior: :D Yep im pretty proud of myself.
Nothing there anymore.
Im guessing it really was just flattering that he was a senior.
Mhh(: Its a good feeling cause now i know what to do with Oscar.
Anyways so hes dating this freshman, and i dont know, its esxciting to see them together.
I guess theyre just that cute :P
Dating my best friend?! Yes.
Sort of.
Gosh its crazy.
The only thing thats stopping us from being official is the fact that we both flirt a lot.
I dont know if were gonna get together in these next 8 months,
but Sophomore year, yeah im pretty excited to see what happens between us.
But theres a few things that are making me...hesitant i suppose.
1. BEST. FRIENDS.
it never works out with best friends.
Well not usually.
2. BEST. FRIENDS.
what happens if we break up and things change? completely?
I hate using this example but: Martin.
it was a total 180 for us.
i dont want that with Oscar.
3. Distance.
Right now. thats whats holding us back.
4. Flirtyness
Again, just temporary.
5. Lexi.
Lexi. my cavi. i love her to death but,
i think she likes him STILL.
im not sure about him, but you know?
shes a close friend and shes sensitive,
if i do something like date oscar, shell go off.
So many things to risk..
But, in my opinion,
to see if theres anything between us, id be willing to risk most of it.
Ipod. 8 gig. 4th g. 2 cameras. Facetime. Yep its mine. As of last night x)
TCSOE
Travis County Sheriffs Office Explorers.
Basically they teach you 80% of things officers do x)
pretty cool huh?(:
F*** Everything... - Lauren
I know I post here a lot and I'm so sorry if my rants bother anyone... but right now I kindof don't have anywhere to take this shit... So here comes another awesome rant of awesome (...Not)
So yeah. My day was just the shit. Got bitched at by Ashten because I couldn't be objective over her bitching about my best friend, Found out someone is 'boinked' someone else and wanted to smack her for her awful timing, sat by myself, freaked out because somebody completely vanished, froze my ass off because I was a dumbass and wore leggings instead of real pants, found out my brother is a stoner because he's suicidal, got left behind to sit by myself, got to breathe in all sorts of fucking smoke and shit and my eyes hurt from it, had to calm someone down because of a fucking Creeper who keeps threatening to show up, Sat by myself, Sat in the car staring out the window without saying a word for like an hour driving people home and not one person noticed enough to ask if I was okay, or anything.Yeah, the day definitely had fun parts, but I am not in the mood right now to shine with joy at 'the little things'.
Here's my conversation with Ashten to give you a hint of how my day started off.
So yeah. My day was just the shit. Got bitched at by Ashten because I couldn't be objective over her bitching about my best friend, Found out someone is 'boinked' someone else and wanted to smack her for her awful timing, sat by myself, freaked out because somebody completely vanished, froze my ass off because I was a dumbass and wore leggings instead of real pants, found out my brother is a stoner because he's suicidal, got left behind to sit by myself, got to breathe in all sorts of fucking smoke and shit and my eyes hurt from it, had to calm someone down because of a fucking Creeper who keeps threatening to show up, Sat by myself, Sat in the car staring out the window without saying a word for like an hour driving people home and not one person noticed enough to ask if I was okay, or anything.Yeah, the day definitely had fun parts, but I am not in the mood right now to shine with joy at 'the little things'.
Here's my conversation with Ashten to give you a hint of how my day started off.
Do you have any advice on getting over people, lauren? No one is answering the phone and I am just feeling really upset over this stupid infatuation I have with, well, you know who. Even after all this time. It's seriously irritating. I even turned down someone because I am not over her. Not to mention, she just goes on with her life, not even caring about me at all, so that just makes this infatuation MORE irritating and I really don't know what to do. I'm sorry to come to you with this out of the blue...I just need someone to talk to and yeah...Sorry, man.
Lauren Nystul January 9 at 11:49am
You're totally talking to the wrong person man... I'm the one who was in love with someone who completely turned her down for three years and currently likes someone who is afraid of relationships. I know it's irritating but I really don't know what to tell you...
She had to move on, for herself. She's with someone she really cares about now, and She's happy. I know it sucks, but she is.
She had to move on, for herself. She's with someone she really cares about now, and She's happy. I know it sucks, but she is.
Well, I am gonna be honest with you. I am glad she is happy, I really am but...nevermind, I'll talk to you later. I wish you could, just for one minute, not JUST think about her side of it. You don't understand what she did. And you probably won't. I am not trying to be mean or hateful but the way she dropped me was just horrible. I am not asking you to take my side. I am just asking you to be objective. But I'll talk to you later when I am not as upset as I am right now. Don't mention this to her. She is happy, I know. And I don't want her pitying me or any shit like that. In fact, don't mention this to anyone. I don't want people thinking I am some pathetic loser who can't get over someone after so long.
Lauren Nystul January 9 at 11:59am
I'm sorry, but She's been my best friend for ten years, and I've had ten years of taking her side. I try to see both sides but People don't exactly like to give me all the details. and I'm not just picking her side just because, from what I've heard I believe she did what she had to. Maybe not in the best way, but she did what she had to. I'm not saying she's always right, but... I don't know.
Really I'm the worst person you could pick to be objective... I am sorry, but it's how my brain's been wired for ten years and that's a very hard habit to break.
Really I'm the worst person you could pick to be objective... I am sorry, but it's how my brain's been wired for ten years and that's a very hard habit to break.
I know. I am sorry for expecting you to be objective.
Lauren Nystul January 9 at 11:35pm
Look... I'm sorry, But I really don't know what to say here... You never talk to me unless it's to try to talk about Sam which I told you ages ago I shouldn't be doing because I know I can't be fair and objective. About anything Else I can, but not this. I know we have our issues and she barely ever talks to me anymore, but I love her and I'm not going to give up on her as my best friend just so I can be objective.
I feel like shit a lot because it feels like people only give a shit I exist when they need someone to rant to. And I'm glad I can be that person, but where's anyone else when I need to talk? There's a reason I have a blog where I write all this shit, and a stack of letters too big to fit into an envelope if I ever meant to send them, Nobody gives enough of a shit to listen, and the ones that do are hard to get ahold of, or only care if they are in the right mood.
You're not the only one dealing with shit. I am sorry, i truly am, but you caught me on a really bad day. I'm dealing with liking someone afraid of relationships, i'm fighting depression because no one gives a shit about me in a crowd, I keep getting ditched to sit by myself, every fucking person in the world is a stoner, a smoker, Fucking everyone, or a drinker but me and I feel completely left out because it seems like that's all they are interested in or can talk about. I have no life because I am too busy being responsible to have one, and caring what happens to my body, which no one else seems to care about (either thing), I have to deal with my family bitching at me and everyone around me Constantly, leaving my house and entering a complete new world blindly at the end of the school year and moving in with Montanna who has kindof been driving me up a wall the past few weeks... I really don't know how to feel about any of this, and I'm sorry if I'm too bunged up to be objective.
I know I always seem happy, but I'm not. I have to fight it just like the rest of the world, I just want to be the happy person so bad that i put on the guise, no matter if i feel like hiding in my room for a week, and I know no one would notice if I did.
I feel like shit a lot because it feels like people only give a shit I exist when they need someone to rant to. And I'm glad I can be that person, but where's anyone else when I need to talk? There's a reason I have a blog where I write all this shit, and a stack of letters too big to fit into an envelope if I ever meant to send them, Nobody gives enough of a shit to listen, and the ones that do are hard to get ahold of, or only care if they are in the right mood.
You're not the only one dealing with shit. I am sorry, i truly am, but you caught me on a really bad day. I'm dealing with liking someone afraid of relationships, i'm fighting depression because no one gives a shit about me in a crowd, I keep getting ditched to sit by myself, every fucking person in the world is a stoner, a smoker, Fucking everyone, or a drinker but me and I feel completely left out because it seems like that's all they are interested in or can talk about. I have no life because I am too busy being responsible to have one, and caring what happens to my body, which no one else seems to care about (either thing), I have to deal with my family bitching at me and everyone around me Constantly, leaving my house and entering a complete new world blindly at the end of the school year and moving in with Montanna who has kindof been driving me up a wall the past few weeks... I really don't know how to feel about any of this, and I'm sorry if I'm too bunged up to be objective.
I know I always seem happy, but I'm not. I have to fight it just like the rest of the world, I just want to be the happy person so bad that i put on the guise, no matter if i feel like hiding in my room for a week, and I know no one would notice if I did.
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I'm just so... tired of trying to live my life when no one seems to notice when I do. I know I exist only to please and help people, but it would be nice if I didn't sit by myself so often, and if people had more to talk about than sex drugs and alcohol. Maybe I'm just hanging out with the wrong people, but... I love my friends, and I want to be supportive, I just don't think I can do this... it's seriously... all they talk about! While we were freaking in the car two people kept making out, and I just felt so... Out of place. I swear, I've felt out of place before, but Never more than when I'm with these people.
I swear... sometimes I'm the only person who isn't stoned drugged drunk high or horny all the freaking time... I wish I had someplace to go where life was simpler. Where people wanted to talk about something other than that. I can't even get myself a boyfriend let alone all that. Maybe if I wanted to do all that I would, but I have just no interest in drugs or alcohol. I hate the smell of smoke and beer, it makes me sick and my eyes burn, I have no want at all to be around that. But it seems like if I want to have friends I don't have a choice. I just... I wish there was another option.
I feel so... Alone. All the time. don't get me wrong, I love all these people to death, but..... Nilsa is amazing, but impossible to get ahold of and to ever see - I haven't seen her since school started. Shea is awesome, but has a boyfriend and thus vanishes a lot. Montanna is great except she's one of those people. Courtney is awesome, but she wants Constant freaking contact and I just can't do that. I love Marly, but I can't get her to leave her house, and she loves kira and Jordy so much more now, I never see her except when she has to ride the bus with me. Sam..... that's a whole nother rant.
Sam (Or as She would now like to be called - Spencer (and she would like to be called He on that note as well)) has been my best friend for ten years. Ten fucking years. And she hasn't texted me back since December Fifteenth, and that was an eight text message conversation. But no, She's fucking talking to every other person in the world, including at least two she swore she never wanted to talk to again. But no. Not me. Not her best friend who has been at her side for ten years of bullshit and pain. I've been trying to wait for her to get over herself and realize she needs friends who she hasn't dated/isn't going to date, but it's been nearly impossible, because when you don't text her you don't exist. And for that matter, when I do text her I don't exist. On facebook if I comment on something it's all I love yous and we're bfffs forever, but...... I want our friendship to mean more to her than a poke on facebook. best friendship cant only be a poke war. I feel like I don't know her anymore. I don't know who she is or what she wants from life... I miss her so much, but honestly I miss who she was, because I don't know the first thing about her anymore. I don't know her favorite color, her favorite bands, I don't fucking know anything about her except that she no longer wants to be a 'her'. i feel like as she's shedding 'Sam' and becoming 'Spencer' I'm losing every connection I had with her. I feel like sam is my best friend, always will be, but I don't know the first thing about Spencer, and I don't think he gives a shit about me at all. She moved down to louisiana and went and got erself a new brother and a new family, and forgot about her old one. Except my brother. Him she talks to. Fuckin everybody else in the world but me.
Goddamn... I love these people, I love her, so much more than they can every imagine, but... I'm just so SICK of their SHIT. SICK OF IT. I'm never comfortable... I'm never just.. Happy. I miss being comfortable i my own skin, so much. I miss being secure in having a best friend and someone I could always go to. I miss not feeling alone in every step of my life, I miss not having a boyfriend not being a big deal. I miss not feelin like shit because no one seems to think I'm good enough to even ask out, let alone commit to a relationship. Someone told me that he kinda wanted to ask me out freshman year but didn't because he was with someone, but that doesn't mean shit. Awesome. You kinda liked me freshman year, but didn't tell me until senior year while you have a girlfriend. I never liked you really.... but that's not the point. I just... I wish SOMEONE would give a shit about me and show it. i miss feeling like a human being with a real shot at finding someone decent instead of a chubby broken out over emotional teenage girl who is a complete hopeless romantic that is in fact.. Hopeless.
And there you go. 2062 words on how shitty I feel. Fuck... My lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Catch Up Time - Haley
Oh dear blog.. How ever have you been all these months I have left you alone. Boy do I have a lot to tell you. So we'll start with Chaiya, since he seems to be my main topic. On Monday is our 1 year. Its crazy. But I feel like this year will not be good to us. I feel like so many girls will get in the way of my happiness. Especially Jennifer and Veronica. I just have a bad feeling their names will reoccur often this year. And I promise myself to fix my jealousy issues this year. And I WILL. But those two girls, are just the root of my problems. On top of the never ending Kerry problem.
Veronica, I think, is someone he met in one of his classes and Jennifer is a supposed "long-time" friend. Jennifer caused problems before me and Chaiya were best friends, 2 years ago. She caused problems between him and Kerry and she caused problems between me and him this year we've been together. She needs to just get out of the equation. Me and Chaiya got into a big argument yesterday because he wanted to go see her at work at McDonald's and I couldn't believe he stayed up at 1am. talking to Veronica and Jennifer, but didn't wake up in time to text ME, his own girlfriend. He seems to tell me things just to smooth things over, since I'm sick. But I could care less if I was sick because it seems SOOO disrespectful to not text your girlfriend but talk to 2 girls at 1 in the morning. He apologized but I have a feeling it'll happen again. And on top of that, I feel like he keeps lying to me. And on top of that, he is on tumblr 24/7 and their following each other. What kind of crap is that. And on top of all that, he seems to comment everything or rewrite everything she writes on her walls. UGH. Okay, next topic, Kerry. I blocked her from Yahoo and AIM. Why, you ask? Because she's making excuses not to talk to me and I'm sick of it. I really thought she was a good friend to me, but I realize that she isn't. So I guess we're done being friends. Moving on, I passed my 1st semester of Freshmen year with A's and B's. Super proud of myself. Next, Im getting a new phone tomorrow (: which is what I have been waiting for forever ! I really feel like Im getting closer to the people I consider my friends. Those people would be: Nikkie, Shaniah, Laura, Tatyana, Anthony, Arely, Brianna, Briana, and Daniella. I realize in 7 months, I'll be 15 and it's scary to think how fast time has gone ! Well Blog, Im done for the night (: I'll show you my awesomey awesome phone hopefully tomorrow ! Byee
Veronica, I think, is someone he met in one of his classes and Jennifer is a supposed "long-time" friend. Jennifer caused problems before me and Chaiya were best friends, 2 years ago. She caused problems between him and Kerry and she caused problems between me and him this year we've been together. She needs to just get out of the equation. Me and Chaiya got into a big argument yesterday because he wanted to go see her at work at McDonald's and I couldn't believe he stayed up at 1am. talking to Veronica and Jennifer, but didn't wake up in time to text ME, his own girlfriend. He seems to tell me things just to smooth things over, since I'm sick. But I could care less if I was sick because it seems SOOO disrespectful to not text your girlfriend but talk to 2 girls at 1 in the morning. He apologized but I have a feeling it'll happen again. And on top of that, I feel like he keeps lying to me. And on top of that, he is on tumblr 24/7 and their following each other. What kind of crap is that. And on top of all that, he seems to comment everything or rewrite everything she writes on her walls. UGH. Okay, next topic, Kerry. I blocked her from Yahoo and AIM. Why, you ask? Because she's making excuses not to talk to me and I'm sick of it. I really thought she was a good friend to me, but I realize that she isn't. So I guess we're done being friends. Moving on, I passed my 1st semester of Freshmen year with A's and B's. Super proud of myself. Next, Im getting a new phone tomorrow (: which is what I have been waiting for forever ! I really feel like Im getting closer to the people I consider my friends. Those people would be: Nikkie, Shaniah, Laura, Tatyana, Anthony, Arely, Brianna, Briana, and Daniella. I realize in 7 months, I'll be 15 and it's scary to think how fast time has gone ! Well Blog, Im done for the night (: I'll show you my awesomey awesome phone hopefully tomorrow ! Byee
Just Awesome... - Lauren
Well I think my dad just rid me of any way to ever do anything. He's just enlisted me and my brother Every Saturday for the foreseeable future to clean up the garage, and we have Epic Rehearsals (like a live action D&D game improvised on stage) Sundays for the foreseeable future... Weekdays I have school and homework... and somewhere in there I am still supposed to make a resume, find a job, store money, sort my stuff, plan moving out in june or july, learn to master my crappy Serger and make costumes almost entirely myself for Epic, Apply for scholarships and student aide because we're broke as hell and I don't have anything saved up...The list goes on...... I just don't know how I'm supposed to do all this... And have a life. Apparently I don't get to have one. I don't know how to do all of this, nor do I know how to go about doing ANY of this... Shit... I'm just so confused and I wish I had time to have a life amongst all of this shit. We just got into a big... not fight exactly, but rude disagreement and Dad keeps accusing me of having no ambition and not caring enough about my life to do anything, but really all this scares the shit out of me and I don't know how to do it, and he said in there without me having to say it that parents love more than anything for their kids to ask them for help, but then he goes on about how there's no time and how he's always so tired, and how his life is sooo much busier and more important than anything I do... and I wasn't going to start the fight because i know it has to happen and the house has to get clean, but he started it anyway then got all pissed when I couldn't just be all cheerful about my entire life going away and all the shit everyone expects of me in the next few months... sometimes i feel like everyone wants so much for me, but unless i'm doing something for them I don't matter. and they want me to do things, they give me an end result but don't bother telling me how to get there. Like giving someone an address in a city they've never been to and telling them to get there without a map... I don't know how to do this... I really don't. I really could use some help but don't know where to go or who to ask.
and I can't get my best friend to talk to me at all, and I don't know how to convince her she needs friends who don't want to get into her pants or vice versa... Girlfriend or no. Rae and I were talking about how much it sucks that we couldn't get sam to talk to the two remaining people who still gave a real shit about her, but now Sam is talking to her..... And Amanda... WTFFF?? and my brother... and it seems like everyone but me. I don't know how to live my life without her and i seriously feel like i'm losing her... I don't know how to be best friends with someone who won't talk to you and lives 8 hours away so you can't just show up and demand they talk to you... I don't know how to do this..... I really don't...
On a different side entirely, I still freaking like him and was up till two talking to him last night... I missed that. though i'm totally exhausted today. Dad keeps sideways mentioning to me that he's "not so secretly rooting for him to ask me out" and he has no idea that when he says that it digs into my chest and i feel like crying. He needs to learn that i'm not single because i want to be. I'm single because no one has given a shit to ask me out. Or really to even try. And that sucks. A lot. it hurts, and i feel like giving up entirely sometimes except that i'm a complete hopeless romantic and don't know how else to feel...
I don't know... I need help... but don't know where to go...
and I can't get my best friend to talk to me at all, and I don't know how to convince her she needs friends who don't want to get into her pants or vice versa... Girlfriend or no. Rae and I were talking about how much it sucks that we couldn't get sam to talk to the two remaining people who still gave a real shit about her, but now Sam is talking to her..... And Amanda... WTFFF?? and my brother... and it seems like everyone but me. I don't know how to live my life without her and i seriously feel like i'm losing her... I don't know how to be best friends with someone who won't talk to you and lives 8 hours away so you can't just show up and demand they talk to you... I don't know how to do this..... I really don't...
On a different side entirely, I still freaking like him and was up till two talking to him last night... I missed that. though i'm totally exhausted today. Dad keeps sideways mentioning to me that he's "not so secretly rooting for him to ask me out" and he has no idea that when he says that it digs into my chest and i feel like crying. He needs to learn that i'm not single because i want to be. I'm single because no one has given a shit to ask me out. Or really to even try. And that sucks. A lot. it hurts, and i feel like giving up entirely sometimes except that i'm a complete hopeless romantic and don't know how else to feel...
I don't know... I need help... but don't know where to go...
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Mhhh(: -Brianna
So he came over. We chilled in my room. We walked to the ditch and back. We froze our butts off. and we did absolutely nothing. In all honesty im just a tad surprised that nothing happened with all that we've talked about. Buuut its okay because he likes someone else and i respect that. Buut no it was totally fun. I dont even know what we talked about in those 3 hours but i know it was fun! But i mean i still reeeally wish he would like me... :/ blahh
Readers - Lauren
So it has come to my attention that a certain person who I have talked about in these posts has found this blog, and is now increasingly mad at me for calling said person an asshole.
I would just like to state that I do not think you are a terrible person, I do not hate you, But I do think you were being an asshole, and if I have to completely lose your trust in me to get you to see that then so be it. It's bad for her and I don't want to just sit by and let things be. But, I don't want to meddle. I will give her advice when I see it necessary, I'll be there for her when you're being an asshole, But I'll try not to get too far into the middle.
P.S. Getting pissed off at me for something I said in a Blog that you had to search my facebook page to find, even though you un-friended me, is totally unfair, and it's kind of creeping me out wondering what you read. Just saying. Weird. There's shit on here that like.... Two people know, and if you are number three, that's weird. Just thought I'd put that out there. Have a Nice Day!
I would just like to state that I do not think you are a terrible person, I do not hate you, But I do think you were being an asshole, and if I have to completely lose your trust in me to get you to see that then so be it. It's bad for her and I don't want to just sit by and let things be. But, I don't want to meddle. I will give her advice when I see it necessary, I'll be there for her when you're being an asshole, But I'll try not to get too far into the middle.
P.S. Getting pissed off at me for something I said in a Blog that you had to search my facebook page to find, even though you un-friended me, is totally unfair, and it's kind of creeping me out wondering what you read. Just saying. Weird. There's shit on here that like.... Two people know, and if you are number three, that's weird. Just thought I'd put that out there. Have a Nice Day!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Oh my goodness...-Briannas
I think im the luckiest freshman ever. No joke. I dont care that he doesnt wanna date me, and i dont care that were only friends, but a very attractive senior is coming over to my house today. For no reason. Just because. Because he wants to. :D Whether hes cute or not, its flattering to anyone, especially freshmen girls, that a senior would like to spend time with them. Ahh, 2011 is off to an amazing start(:
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