I am so happy(:- Brianna

Things just went so well today.
Like i made plans with friends,
we had a BLAST
and i dont know
everything just feels...
right.
School is amazing. i love my school.
theres like one class that i find "hard" right now
and its only because of the project that were doing.
durring lunch i sit with Casey.
Shes seriously like my second best friend right now.
its great.
we eat in the courtyard so it makes us feel cool x)
LOL.
My cousins transfering there next year,
Oscar and Lexi might be there,
Alexis Rubio might be there,
like i have really high hopes for next year.
Today was soo much fun. after school Casey CAME
home with me and we met up with some friends.
we walked to our old elementary, then a park, then a store, then back home (:
we had loads of fun.
Me and Oscar are kind of really acting like the best friends i missed us being.
Lately hes been busy so we dotn text as much but i understand right? well tonight its like none of that ever happend and its normal like in the begining of the year.
Tonight for the first time he called me Beautiful and has actually written out "Ilove you" more than 4 times :P
Tomorrow weve got a family trip to San Antonio and im totally excited.
Tanning and Walkikng :D
Were going to the zoo x)
Im excited loads(:
Sunday is back to work but its okay hopefully ill get all i need done (:
Well its alnmost 11 and i need sleep :P
Goodnight Blog.
and thanks for always being here cause i know a lot of friends and i have grown distant this year. So i thank you love(: hehe
Goodnight <3
DREAM A LITTLE DREAM OF ME <3

I need a life- Brianna

I feel like everyone has a life but me.
Everyone has plans for Friday nights,
saturday afternoons,
and Sunday mornings,
while i just sit here and beg my mom to let me to do something.
im in high school.
shouldnt i be totally booked and so "I'll get back to you" should be my most commonly used excuse right?
nope.
"Sorry i have a project due soon"
is more like it :/
i really need to start going out,
and getting friends who will make plans with me.
But no. instead i sit here while listening to Pandora Radio,
praying SOMEONE will text me :/
i hate letting time go to waste but this spring break was the worst thing that couldve happened to me.
i usually BEG for days off, but so i can do things with friends.
instead i write to myself, and anyone whos stuck around long enough to still read this, about how im a total loser D:
So im gonna make myself better by talking about the rest of the school year:
This friday im skipping school to go to San Antonio, which will be a two day trip cause on saturday i have competition,
next friday im leaving early cause ive got a two day competition (state champs.) in Huston.
The fourth, ill be skipping school because of a dentist appointment.
sometime durring the month of april ill be skipping another two days (or having half days) to do "tours" to the middle schools about Color/winterguard.
Then the 13th of may ill be skipping to leave for our band trip(:
After that the school years going to FLYYYYYY by.
Or at least i hope it does.
Already the weeks are going by pretty quickly which is making me soo happy.
So my freshman year wasnt as great as i hoped it would be but you know, ive got 11 weeks left, i should just make the best of those 11 mondays 11 tuesdays 11 wednesdays 11 thursdays and 11 fridays. And i hope to also take advantage of my 8 free Saturdays i have left.
So that number (nine) just freaked me out a little.
holy shit.
i have Nine chances to hang with friends before the school years over.
Damn..
And soon enough, by like mid-April ill be busy starting to plan my quince.
Things needed for a quince:
Dress
Guest list
Theme
Food
Entertainment
Father-Daughter Dance
Court (sometimes)
Building to hold it in
Decorations
What We Have:
Half way done with the Father-Daughter Dance.
"Building" To hold it in,
(my grandpas ranch)
and SOME decorations, but like little things.
thats it. so ive gota busy summer ahead of me.
Pluuus i want to have an after party at my house.
So yeah, around April i gotta start worrying about that
and my July- August i have to order my dress.
Basically by August all we should have to do is finish buying decorations.
Ive already got 600 bucks saved up for it so itll be fun.
my sisters only had 1000 so if i have even just the slightest bit more itll be good(:
Anyways, im gonna go ask my mom to take me out somewhere (:
Goodbyeee!

So like-Brianna

i know i talk about my best friend all the time
but i never talk about WHY i love him to death
or WHY hes amazing.
So i think i will.
because hes just totally made me super happy this past week(:
When we met last year in the nurses office, i knew we'd get to know each other
and i knew there was a chance that wed become really close friends.
but i NEVER imagined it to be this amazing
or this close.
I never thought HED be the one who holds all of my secrets
and all of my trust.
we got to know each other a little better and by the time auditions rolled around i found myself wanting to audition with HIM.
Well, i did.
but we didnt really talk after that
after rehearsals started we talked more and more
and got closer and closer
we took advantage of the time we had to spend with each other.
like second period theatre arts.
probably my favorite class last year.
not gonna lie, mainly because of him.
it was weird cause to this day, a year and plus some after being soo close to him ive never had a crush on him.
and at times i really wish i did.
cause in all honesty, i reaaally wouldnt be surprised if end up dating again, or in al honesty, were so perfect for each other that i can see us being happily married.
infact today we were joking around about that too.
and the other day at lunch my friend caleb said "damn it brianna if you dont marry him hes going to turn gay and its going to be all our fault!"
he was so serious.
my mom agrees with him.
and Oscar thinks theres a possibility.
So i havent seen him in two weeks.
i miss him like crazy D:
we text a lot but its not the same.
and right now my family is going through something really hard to deal with and i reeeally need his comforting hugs,
but instead i just get Hollywood and his Axe spray.
anyways
as to why i love him:
hes always there for me.
i dont think ive gone through ANYTHING alone since i met him.
we've been on four dates and every single time we had soo much fun.
hes my ex boyfriend. but i hardly remember sometimes.
^ why?
Well, you see, ive never had a crush on him so we dated for a week then decided that we're just to good of friends to risk it.
Plus i think the pressure from everyone telling us to go out starting on the day we met just made it so weird.
It sounds weird but while we were dating, we were the main topic of me and my friends,
and him and his friends,
and my family,'
and his.
Too much of one topic gets boring right?
well one week was too long for us.
anyways, more reasons
hes insanely stupid(:
hes fun to be around
Hes more than a brother, and more than a best friend.
i guess now that i think of it,that describes boyfriend doesnt it?
hm.. well it doesnt matter.
its just how our friendship works.
some people use the "love-hate" relationships,
some use "I love you like a sis"
then theres "twins"
and just friends
and best friends.
they're really all just titles.
either way its just a FRIENDship.
Besides, IIIIf i ever did consider dating him again, itd have to wait until next year because of a couple of reasons.
speaking of.
Gosh i cannot wait til next year!
Band is going to be LOADS of fun with him!
Summer band, practices, bus rides, football games, trips.
mann...(:
But im scared im getting my hopes to high.
like what if he moves? I move? He gets out of MISD? or i do? Or what if we just grow apart?
I hate to admit it but things like that really terrify me.
I dont understand how ive gone so long without seeing my best friend every Mon-Fri,
and to not see him ever would just completely suck major butt.
I'll be the first to admit,
sometimes i think i have separation anxiety.
but i understand everything happens for a reason
and theres a reason why i met him,
theres a reason why i started school in cali, and therefore im a year ahead
theres a reason for all of it, and one day ill find out.
so now, why i think hes amazing,
More like why dont i?!
First of all, of the things i listed above work for this too.
plus hes a really amazing guy.

Why?!-Brianna

So ive been talking to an old friend for a while
and guess who likes him?
Guess who he likes?(:
No.
I mean yes he likes me,
but no its not a good thing.
I ran into him last night and he asked me
"So if we were alone how far would you go with me?"
With a smile on his face.
Just like the other D-bags ive dated :/
pisses me the hell off.
Like at least i didnt let myself soo hung over this guy.
Better to find out hes like all the other guys now than after we dated,
or anything else happened.
See, i just personally find that question suuch a turn off.
So im not going to lie, i used to consider getting asked for sex almost like a compliment. i found it flattering, but I've realized that its NOT.
Not at all.
But anyways, so i liked this guy, but now i know to stay clear of him cause if i just let him keep asking me that he'll take it farther.
On a good note, i absolutely love my best friend to death.
i told him about all thatt ^^^
and this was our conversation about it:
Oscar:Bewwy?
Me:Mh?
Oscar:So, if we were alone, how long do you think our hugs and naps would last?(:
Me:Forever(:
Oscar:Is THAT a turn off?(:
Me: No, Not at all <3
Oscar: I love you berry(:
Me:I know, i love you too(:
END x)
He just knows how to make me frooberly happy even in situations like this.
i know its not a big deal but it kind of is cause i havent really been into anyone this year except for the Senior :P

Goddamn... - Lauren

He's home and safe, both boys are okay, both parents are freaking out, Jim of course was unseat-belted so he banged his head on the dashboard so he might have a concussion. But they're mostly okay. Jarrett's trying to figure things out on the police side, I'm trying not to throw up because lunch just isn't sitting well, I'm all stress broken out, but again. we're all okay. Just stressed. ><

What a Fucking Night. - Lauren

When something bad happens dad gets this particular sound in his voice. I don't hear it often, but when I do I know that's when it's really bad. It's this high pitched sound, usually attached to a 'what' when he hears. he simply can't understand why something is the way it is, and you can hear it in his voice. I heard that sound tonight. Let me explain...

Went to bed at 12:30 totally exhausted from the awesome concert I went to see last night.
Too tired for choir practice the next morning, decide that I'm going to sleep in and stay until normal school time.
But lo and behold, 4:30 AM Who other to wake me up by banging on the door than his mom. She proceeds to apologize for waking me and tells me that Jim and Patrick were joyriding in a stolen car (my uncle's car) and were chased by the cops up to 120 miles an hour and hit a guardrail. She proceeds to further tell me that Patrick is in the hospital and Jim, my wonderful brother, ran from the cops. He was texting her with Patrick's phone, but that was all, and she knew she had to tell us. I of course get the fun job of waking dad up and telling him this lovely news.

This is when Dad gets the sound in his voice. We're all outside trying to figure out what to do and how to do it, considering we can't get ahold of him. All we know is that he passed Sam Bass and hopped a bunch of barbed wire fences so his hands are all torn up. We know there was blood, but Jim being a 16 year old, 'knows some medical stuff, so he's okay'. Dumbass wasn't wearing a seatbelt. Dad called Jarrett, the defuser and detective for the austin police department - our kindly cop friend who Jim trusts, and we sent Jim his number. Jim (thank god) called him, and Jarrett got his location out of him and got him to stay there, he got him fixated on just wanting to get back to his own warm bed instead of running. Dad's on his way to get him. Julie went home (her mother and daughter were in the car with her, having come from the hospital with patrick). I get to sit and wait, and wait until bryan wakes up and I get to tell him Jim stole and wrecked his car, and try to calm him down. I'd rather be anywhere else.

And of course, it's five in the fucking morning so no one is awake for me to tell this too, so I'm talking to the blog. Hi blog, how are you? Feeling Bloggy today? well that's dandy. Me? Oh i'm just shaking and just as worried as anyone else, but i get to sit and play the waiting game. Oh that sounds fun does it? do I detect some sarcasm? I think I do. Well bloggy... I think I'm going to put something on netflix and eat some mini wheats if I can and try to calm down, and hope someone wakes up. Thanks for listening dear bloggy. Oh, no, I don't think I'll be going to sleep.

Borken- Brianna

Broken.
Thats what my family is like.
My sisters gone.
theres no hope in talking her out of anything these days.
shes so different and i hate it.
So theres this program, TSCO Explorers
And theres this guy Chris,
my moms convinced he likes one of us.
i doubt it.
but shes a mom, she wont let us say he doesnt.
anyways.
so he wants to go to my next competition,
and my mom told my sister.
Her response?
"Why would he like her? Maybe hes going because Tana used to do Color Guard"
So then this morning she told me she has a crush on him.
So shes mad cause hes going to my competition.
im so annoyed with her.