So like-Brianna

i know i talk about my best friend all the time
but i never talk about WHY i love him to death
or WHY hes amazing.
So i think i will.
because hes just totally made me super happy this past week(:
When we met last year in the nurses office, i knew we'd get to know each other
and i knew there was a chance that wed become really close friends.
but i NEVER imagined it to be this amazing
or this close.
I never thought HED be the one who holds all of my secrets
and all of my trust.
we got to know each other a little better and by the time auditions rolled around i found myself wanting to audition with HIM.
Well, i did.
but we didnt really talk after that
after rehearsals started we talked more and more
and got closer and closer
we took advantage of the time we had to spend with each other.
like second period theatre arts.
probably my favorite class last year.
not gonna lie, mainly because of him.
it was weird cause to this day, a year and plus some after being soo close to him ive never had a crush on him.
and at times i really wish i did.
cause in all honesty, i reaaally wouldnt be surprised if end up dating again, or in al honesty, were so perfect for each other that i can see us being happily married.
infact today we were joking around about that too.
and the other day at lunch my friend caleb said "damn it brianna if you dont marry him hes going to turn gay and its going to be all our fault!"
he was so serious.
my mom agrees with him.
and Oscar thinks theres a possibility.
So i havent seen him in two weeks.
i miss him like crazy D:
we text a lot but its not the same.
and right now my family is going through something really hard to deal with and i reeeally need his comforting hugs,
but instead i just get Hollywood and his Axe spray.
anyways
as to why i love him:
hes always there for me.
i dont think ive gone through ANYTHING alone since i met him.
we've been on four dates and every single time we had soo much fun.
hes my ex boyfriend. but i hardly remember sometimes.
^ why?
Well, you see, ive never had a crush on him so we dated for a week then decided that we're just to good of friends to risk it.
Plus i think the pressure from everyone telling us to go out starting on the day we met just made it so weird.
It sounds weird but while we were dating, we were the main topic of me and my friends,
and him and his friends,
and my family,'
and his.
Too much of one topic gets boring right?
well one week was too long for us.
anyways, more reasons
hes insanely stupid(:
hes fun to be around
Hes more than a brother, and more than a best friend.
i guess now that i think of it,that describes boyfriend doesnt it?
hm.. well it doesnt matter.
its just how our friendship works.
some people use the "love-hate" relationships,
some use "I love you like a sis"
then theres "twins"
and just friends
and best friends.
they're really all just titles.
either way its just a FRIENDship.
Besides, IIIIf i ever did consider dating him again, itd have to wait until next year because of a couple of reasons.
speaking of.
Gosh i cannot wait til next year!
Band is going to be LOADS of fun with him!
Summer band, practices, bus rides, football games, trips.
mann...(:
But im scared im getting my hopes to high.
like what if he moves? I move? He gets out of MISD? or i do? Or what if we just grow apart?
I hate to admit it but things like that really terrify me.
I dont understand how ive gone so long without seeing my best friend every Mon-Fri,
and to not see him ever would just completely suck major butt.
I'll be the first to admit,
sometimes i think i have separation anxiety.
but i understand everything happens for a reason
and theres a reason why i met him,
theres a reason why i started school in cali, and therefore im a year ahead
theres a reason for all of it, and one day ill find out.
so now, why i think hes amazing,
More like why dont i?!
First of all, of the things i listed above work for this too.
plus hes a really amazing guy.