Im so annoyed. -Breanna

Latley all the little things annoy me, and anger me. And lately ive been getting into a lot of fights with my mom, and shedding too many tears for someone who could care less about me. in the past week ive gotten into 4 fights with my mom. and got my phone taken up. Last night i got it back but still she never takes up my phone for that long, so you know how stresed she was. And i havent just gotten into fights with my mom, even some of my friends are getting on my nervs. do i tell them? why would i? its jsut a phase and if i tell them "hey blank, look yer getting annoying ill talk to you when i want to" what kind of friend does that make me? a bad one. or maybe not, but i will not tell them that. but ughh. i dont knoww. i just need a little time away. i dont know. everythings jsut piling up and i dont know what to do really. and then yesterday was 5 weeks and im so tired of being reminded of what happened between me and himm. i really thought i was over him. and yes ive made progress, and i dont love him, but i still like him and miss him. but guys are the last thing on my mind right noww. but anyways, im going to Hutto in 3 hours with Mileena so i gotta start getting ready. good bye.

What will I say? -Nilsa

So, Ryan Maxey is apparently going to ask me out. This is complicated. Why, you ask? Allow me to explain this exciting year of Maxeys' to you.
First, I went out with Kevin Maxey, and we lasted five weeks, before I was broken up with for the very first time. He proceeded to date one of my old friends, than ask out another one of my old friends, and now, of course, he is going out with a third old friend, named A****. A**** is Ryans' ex-girlfriend. So, it would appear they have decided to switch girls. I'm not interested in revenge, and I do not want it to look like I am.
So, do I like him? Somewhat. But not even to the point where I would consider it a crush. I don't want to be embaressed by my boyfriend like I was in 7th grade. I mean... people tell us we would be cute together, but who knows what their really thinking. Plus, I usually always date people in athletics, but that's besides the point! People call him a loser and a nerd and suddenly, miraculously, we're cute together! As for his personaility, I like the fact that he knows who the B-52s are. It sounds like a little thing but, it's cool. To me, anyways. He is a very awkward person. I don't want it o be one of those relationships. Plus, I can't tell whether I really like him, or if I've just felt that way ever since I found out he was thinking of asking. Looks aren't an issue. So, what to do?
The other thing that gets me is that I'll be "going with someone but wanting someone else." According to some, this is cheating. I never thought so, but... I don't want to do that to someone, whether it's cheating or not.
Eh, I guess I can give him a chance. I've broken up with people before, but I also don't want to ruin our friendship. Any thoughts? Comments are cool. Thank you!

Excuse me? -Nilsa

When I found out what all these people have been saying about me, this was all I could think. All I could feel was the sting of betrayal. Ex-Friends, current Friends... the whole gang. Thinking about it later, it's really funny. I love being such an interesting person that I can keep so many people preoccupied for an entire year. This doesn't make it hurt any less. Knowing that a person is wrong to punch you never softens the blow.
I've learned to take things in stride. In September, I would have cried after hearing about this. Nothing can shake me now. I suppose it's a good thing, although now I don't get suprised about many good things either. For example, Christmas. I used to get butterflys on Christmas.
I'm at least starting to realize who I can trust.
I'm here to tell the world that my name is Nilsa, and I LIKE GUYS. Thanks for listening.

BTW: The Young Authors Club is AMAZING. I usually don't support mid-year changes, but this time, I'm all for it!

Im Done :) -Breanna

im done with him.. for real. hearing what he said made me realize i dont love him anymore. im completely asnd totally, done with him. am i over him? not completly. but i can tell you right now, that i am no longer talking to him. just three more months and im getting the eff outta his life, and him outta mine. isnt that what i wanted anyways? well guess what? i got itt. anywayss happy note sii? Reheasals were kinda whack today too butt they were totally funn :) me nd Oscar are getting closer *as friends* nd its totally awesome :) like today, he gave me thee best hug, tight but not too tight *like Rileys :/* and then we swayed back nd fowrth haha. totally loved itt. then he put his arms over shoulders it was so cutee. haha. then he put his head on my backk :) amazing friendship i have with him. it just sucks that in 3 months im having to let that go as well :( qwll gonna go call Nilsa and get the full storyy agaood, byee :)

i cant believe my first love wont be around.. -Breanna

its insane to think that 5 weeks ago, he huged me tightly, and whispered in my ear "i love you". And today, 5 weeks later a conversation for us, lasts about a minute. its been four weeks since ive broken up with him four weeks as of today. you know how im spending my weekend? reminicing on the two weeks we spent together. the two seperate weeks. it still amazes me that four weeks ago we were litterally in love, and now, its like i was just a a phase. and as much as it kills me, i have to move on. and the only reason? its a thing called destiny. and maybe its destiny that i move on. besides next year and the year after that i wont see him. and who knows, what if we go to different high schools? after high school yer basicly done with yer friends. so who knows, maybe the next three months will be the last time i even talk to him. I jsut cant get it through my head! i mean really! we basicly went out fer 7 weeks but it was official for 2, he asked if i thought we would be together for a really long time, you know what i said? yes. my stupid head fell that hard for him! but now, everything i thought about 5 weeks ago and to this day, now has to be the last thing on my mind.

These Days - Haley

Welll.. yer mom
Okay so field trip tomorrow. I dunno what I'm planning on doing, but
I know I'm going to take a CRAP load of pictures. I gotta make sure
all the ones are deleted so I have room. And yeah. I dunno who is going
but It's my first time and I'm kinda excited. Whatever. Ah I dunno whats
been going on with me and Chaiya! I keep getting angry with him. EHH
whatever. I love him, I really do. I used to think I was just telling myself
that but I believe that hes the guy I'll spend my forever with. .>
so! Ah schools a pressure on my life, on which I do NOT need. It's just
like I think teachers plan everything together so that everything is due
around the same time and so we're all stressed out for like a week and then
nothing. I don't know why I do all of this work just so I bomb it. It's freakin
retarded! I hate it. I don't know why teachers dislike students so much. It's
not like we purposefully plan all of this chaos around the same time the make
a 5 page essay due and we can't get it done in time! It's STUPID. So, I've
decided I want to major in Journalism in college and work or a small magazine
company or something. It seems as though I should start small and work my way
up the ladder of Journalism. Blah! I just can't wait until high school when everything
is moving so fast and my future is actually in progress instead of just being in my
mind. WHEW my wrist hurts from writing. So G'Night(: Byeee

Gone fer Too Long. :( haha -Breanna

so i havent posted in soo long. sucks but ive been so out of it. ive been out of it for the long est time :/ so its Wednesday. there was no school on Monday, went to nilsas house that day it was awesome :) she taught me a little of guitar :) down down down down up (repeat xD) haha. Tuesday was alright except i "got mad"at Matt. nd i didnt talk to him at all. rehearsals were funn. my mom picked me up which... was awesome :) i didnt have to ride the bus :D hehe. today was... ehh. i broke up with Riley which im not sad about. theres a lot on my mind and i neeed to figure everything out before i go out with anyone, wit hthe exception of Jesus. anyways. rehearsals were lame today no one was taking them seriously. i was getting pissed :/ anywayss. then i got on the bus and saw Oscar hanging out with Jesus. His stupid bright green shirt making himself stick out. -.- anywayss. then i started texting oscar then i told him about jesus and he goes ha he got dumped nd i go what?! and he ment me dumping him... i was sadd :( but anyways. then i got home and i told my mom about breaking up with Riley then i brought up jesus then she asked if i still liked him and i said yes then she goes you dont have to deny it. then i said im not denying it. thats why i broke up with Matt. anywayss. so yeahh.. now my sisters boyfriend is here. gross... anyways. tutorials tomorrow fer math gross.... haha. so yeahh thats about it... im done fer now.. BYE! :)

Happy Almost Love-Day -Nilsa

So, it's another year without a proper valentine, which I am suprisingly okay with. I have my new friends. I have an entire lifetime to deal with actual relationships. For now, I am amazingly calm.
My old friends commented on my pictures. I only blocked one of them. They a photo of me A****, M***** and N***** was commented on by A*. "I Love M* and N*!" And then they try to make it seem like I did something so wrong by commenting on one with A* having a huge smile standing next to me and saying; "I haven't smiled that big since... well u no." Whatever. Literally, like, whatever! I actually laughed reading them. They've done so much to me, and I'm done crying over it. It's just dumb. I am too good for it now. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and I've finally learned that "The only time we waste in life is the time we spend thinking we are alone." I've never been alone. If I had ever been truly alone in Texas, I wouldn't even have hesitated to call Emily, Mike, Kai, and Ruby to find out if I could live with them for a while. I know a lot of people. I may have lost the ones closest to me in this state, but I have never in my life lost everybody. And I have never had trouble strengthening relationships or creating new ones altogether. It definitely feel bad about myself to loose so many people, but now I realize that there was almost nothing I could have done to save myself in this situation. It was revolt. It was cruelty. It was premeditated. I am nothing but proud of myself for making it through.

I don't need you- Haley

I don't need friends like this anymore. I've made my mistake in gossiping
but I apologize. But I'll never accept any apology from you. or you. You can
pretend to be my friend. Cause I know you talk about me. The times we had
were great, don't get me wrong. But I don't want to consider you to be my
friend when I find out you talk about me. And Mom, Im not stupid. I know
you don't believe in me. But I'll prove you wrong. I'll show you that I can
make my dreams happen! WITHOUT your support. Cause I never really
had it. (: I'll be fine without you fake people.
_ watching the winter olympics _
Blog later
byee

Just Dance -Breanna

with yer boyfriend, not random guys that go up to you you stupid..... zipping my lips. let me explain. Last night me and my friends went to the dance right? right. it was me mileena nilsa and monce. so me nd melly get there early so we can help her dad set up (he was the dj) and we litterally just chill backstage until we heard music then we went out there nd jamed out ;) we met Nilsa and Monce there and Silva (Alex) showed upp. of course Jesus came too. While he was waiting fer his gf to get there, we were messing with each other, like friends would. Like fer example i droped my ID nd he picked it up and put it around his neck. it was funn. then she showed up. after that he basicly just ignored me but i mean whatever he was with his girlfriend, understandale rightt? right. so throughout the night this is what the little hole did you ready? okay here it goes: gave him the cold shoulder, flirted with MY curent boyfriend, and thennn after he left, she danced with 2 different guys!!! ughhh! he really doesnt deserve that at all! he tried dancing with her, and he tried being as sweet as he possibly could and what does she do? she totally goes and just ugh! i told you guys i never liked her right? there was a reason fer that! im just so mad that hes waisting his time on her, someone who could care less about him. you know how in movies the really popular girl goes out with a guy nd she likes him but doesnt really care fer him? yeahh thats the perfect discription of their relationship. Infact, if my boyfriend were being that sweet to me id prob. die!! ughh i felt so bad, he was being a puppy to her, following her around and holding her stuff and standing behind her ass she danced with her friends. and he tried its not like he just sat there, he tried to dance with her but shes such a grrr. ughh so whatever, i told Alex about what i saw nd i think hes telling Jesus but im not suree.anywayss. gotta go get ready cause im going to the movies laterr. but first i gott clean my room -.- anywayss, please comment nd tell me im not crazy... or if i am just tell me. :)

Valintines Day -Breanna

The day of love. the day where you tell that special someone how much you love them... or in other words: the day where the people who dont have a "special someone" feel like crap. am i right er am i right? I mean i do have a boyfriend so i shouldnt be complaining but i feel bad fer other people. thats why If/when i get gifts, i put tem in my back pack and dont show them off by giving my bear a whole seat to itself. its, stupid. maybe if i were to get a big bear id give it a seat too, but then again i know what its like when ye like "oh i dont have anything" it sucks. But liek i said i shouldnt complain, and im stopping there. Im in my first period, ELA, and i can officailly say im in a 11th, almost 12th grade reading level :) its pretty cool i guess. well bells about to ring, much more to blog about but ill do it later. Good. Bye :) oh and happy EARLY valintines day.

When They're Mean -Nilsa

It's often hard to describe how it feels when my old friends do something rude to me in order to get on my nerves. The first emotion I feel is anger, but that doesn't last long. After that it's funny. Funny that their trying so hard. That's why I try not to react to it anymore. I don't want to give any of them the satisfaction. Don't get me wrong though... It still hurts. The fact that they WANT to hurt me is the only thing that gets to me. I mean, if your best friend starts to throw cotton balls at you out of anger, how would that feel?
I'd love to use the word hate against them, but I simply can't. I will always care about them immensely, but they had a world of chances that have unfortunitely all used up.

:): -Brianna

that up there, is supposed to be like those, theatre faces. i totally fergot what theyre called but anywayss. good and bad stuff have happened todayy. should we start with good or bad? i think bad so that we can end this in a good mood. yes? yes. well know ill just tell you the order in which they happen deal? deal. i heard he broke up with his girlfriend... i mean chubacka. flase rumors. after lunch Riley asked me out. i said yes. Todays Mileenas sisters boyfriends birthday :). happy birthday cornbread! <- his nick name dont freak.:D lol Rehearsals were alrightt. i still dont think that Lexi should be Dorothy. Just saying. i went to my brothers band concert. can you guess who was there? Yepp... that guy who needs to move outta my heart and make room fer my new boyfriendd. but then again hes got lease fer about a year...<- cheesy joke i know.... anyways so Jesus was there. i was talking to Devon. She told me that he told her that he'll never be over me or he'll never ferget me er something along those lines. gahh why does he have to be so damn amazing?! cant he just pack up his stuff and gget out of my life?! :( ughh anyways so through out the preformance we were totally joking around he had to go pee and id pretend to be drinking water. then we started pretending that we had guns and we started shooting eachother.... :) then afterwords, i was leaving nd i didnt know he was behind me so i let the door close, then he goes oh thanks dont even hold the door open for me nd i go im sorryyy i didnt know you were behind me. nd he goes ("no its whatever". <- inside joke between us.) you remember that? nd i sighed crossed my arm and softly i go yeah i remember. then i totally change the subject and bring up the worse topic ever. hes new girlfriend. i literally felt like shooting myself. i go so you have a girlfriend nd he goes yes ive got a girlfriend. then i saw a guy that i kne wso i got "hi jesse!" really loud. nd jesus goes whos that? all like...mad er somethingg. then i go that? the guy? nd he goes yeah. nd i go "my sisters ex boyfriend." nd he goes oh. okayy. i laughed. then we kept saying bye nd then not leaveing then pretending to be mad at each other then saying sorry. it made me feel....badd. if yer going out with someone but honestly want someone else is it considered cheating? YES! it is. at leaset it is in my head. i feel soo...guilty. well... i have to go to bed. :/ goodnightt.
P.S. new girl at school, amazingly cool :) love her to death alreadyy! haha

Confusion -Nilsa

Is it better to be like them, or how I was? Is it better to act out from anger, seeking revenge on the ones you don't enjoy the company of, or is it better to be pathetic? Crying in class daily and simply wishing you had back what you once had.
I now realize that I have a slight amount of power. It comes from their acts of envy and heartlessness, but it gives mw power. I don't want to sink to their level. I'd rather stay pathetic... or would I? It's hard to find a middle point.
On a happy note, Kathy is truly one of the best friends I've ever had. Some people try to tell me that she's talking about me behind my back, but most say that she's the only one of them that occasionally stands up for me. She cheered for me when others were trying to break me by cheering loudly for the people in line before and after me in the layup lines. Then she refused to sign the petition, even after being pressured. I think she may actually care about me, and understand the fact that if this can happen to me, it can happen to anyone. Kathy+NewFriends+MassachusettsFriends+Family=MyLife
That's not half as bad as it seems sometimes.
Also, my Best Friend KAI! I've apparently known him since before he was born...(?) He will definitly be there for everything in my life. No doubt about it.

School- breanna

so im blogging from mr.medinas classroom right before lunch. im pissed off. to the extream. i got my phone taken up and i wont get it back til tomorrow. but thats not even whats making me mad. its the fact that she took it up when my MOM texted me, about my gradpa SHE took it up and i go its my mum nd she goes she shuldve called. NO! she shouldnt have! she can contact me however she wants to. it wouldve taken her longer to get the message t me if she called. ughhhh she needs to check herself! -_-

Frangibility -Nilsa

adj: (Fran.gi.ble) Capable of being broken; brittle; fragile; easily broken

It's insane to come across this word today. Five months ago, I was compleatly frangible. When I got those horrible texts, I let it show. I seem weaker now then I was before September 12th, but really, I just have more chances to break than I did back then. I had so many friends in those days, but I compleatly relied on them. Looked toward them before I made a movnent. Needed them. When I visited Massachusetts in those days, things were always so different. I would move, and people would follow. I would be fun, different.... special. It was great. And now, slowly, I am discovering that it is possible to be that way here in Texas. I have new friends who mean so much to me. I'll never forget the past, but hopefully I will be able to move on from it. Every day I care less and less. Every week I cry less and less. It's wonderful. My new friends truly care about me, and now, after having such a crewl awakening, I know this for sure. 100% positive. Now, maybe, when I go to Massachusetts, it will be similar to here. But don't worry, Amherst/Mount/Gardner friends. That place up east will always be my home.

a blog? -Ashlyn

so this is my first post and i really dont know what to write. i am the only contributor in amherst, ma... which i know is a LOT different than texas. but i guess i'll start with explaining my week so far. soo last sunday i found out that my stepmom was pregnant. this was... wierd for me. i already have 7 siblings, even though 2 years ago i had one. sooo yeah. i have 4 stepsiblings, one brother, and then 2 half-siblings who are 2 years old and 10 months. so i was looking forward to just ONE year without babies but whatever.. and yeah i was really stressed out wiht all the non-stop musical rehearsal. and then wednesday morning i found out that one of my best friends dad had died. so this weekend i spent rushing around from memorial service to fieldhockey to rehearsal to superbowl to hw. oh wow how did i ever find time to go to the mall? but thankfully i did, because i had been wanting to go since xmas. thankfully for february break i get to go to florida and get tan.. but its only a break from half of my crazy family. and then the week after i get back is performance week for the musical, and then the week after there is final exams!!! yeah i just gotta calm down

broken heartt.... -Brianna

Gahh so i was texting Haley today then she told me something about Jacob so i texted him asking about it and it was true. it was about Jesus' new girlfriend. i told him i why i don't like her and he was so cool about it. the text reply i got was: do you want me to break them up? nd my reply was: i don't care. if yer gonna do it, do it cause you want to, dont do it fer me. he said he's going to do it. i'm not really sure how i feel. like i mean i understand he's being my big brother and all but breaking them up is kind of extream. but theenn i found out that he put his arm around her and she didn't do anything it was Jesus that moved it. that stupid little..... breath in breath out. i'm calmer now. i just- he deserves better than that stupid little.. TRAMP! ugh! so i told him "eff it break them up" so hes going to flirt with her. thats it, the rest is between Jesus and the Tramp. i just... shes gonna be the kind who cheats i can tell. and he doesnt deserve that. he deserves someone as loyal as he is, someone who tells him he loves him but totally means it. someone who makes a ton of inside jokes with him. someone whos aching when they dont see him. someone... someone who's going to name their kids Annabelle and Ty... ughhhhh :( why cant i live under a friggin rock where i would have no connection with the outside world?! it's make life soo much easier. ughhh.... im going to bed....

blahhhh -Breanna

NOTE: Haley i know yer gonna tell me somethingbut please dont. *End of Note* Gahhhh i hate this feeling! i really do. i cant seem to get over him and it sucks! its been two weeks. i think right now was when i found out that he took it as a break up :/ Wednesday i was playing hangman with Monce and Alex, they couldnt figure out the last two words *I Love* then he came up and looks at it, then at me and goes "I Love" my heart litterally stoped. Alex goes what? then He goes those are the words. its soo insane that those two words made my heart stop. i mean litterally. i had to go get water and talk to Nilsa fer a bit, although i didnt bring it up. it made my heart go faster, then it stoped. i loved hearing him say those words again, but this time they werent directed to me and it felt like crap. it really did :/ Honestly he doesnt even act like hes going out with that chickk. but im not gonna say anything about it cause then ill start thinking things then ill convinve myself that isnt true at all. "Nd i cant breath without you but i have to breath with out you. but i have to..." :/ gahh i really just need Nilsa here. Chocolate therapy in 50 mins. Shes working on her audition fer tomorrow :) im so proud of her. like really. shes totally getting into that school :D well. im gonna go take a shower. goodbye. P.S. TGIF :)

I HATE MY MOM- Haley

Ugh. I think I was her worst mistake. She fucking hates everything that has to

do with me. She's a bitch. A cold hearted, mean, evil, rude, stupid, nasty, bitch.

I don't want to be a part of her life anymore. Just cause I made one slip up, you

are ruining my chances of talking with MY boyfriend, because you don't have a

life! I HATE YOU. I FUCKING HATE YOU! You don't listen to what I have to

say and think everything is so much more important that what I have to say when

in reality it's RETARDED. You don't love me, YOU PROBABLY WISH YOU NEVER

EVEN HAD ME. That's fine. I won't be around much longer. You won't have to

stress over me anymore cause you're only doing that to make my life SO MUCH

more difficult. I hate you. I don't love you. You won't ever, and I promise, hear "I

love you" come out of my mouth towards you again. Nothing you do is in my best

interest, it's in yours. You're just jealous that I have someone who actually gives a

fuck about me without getting mad over shit like this! He's the ONLY person who

actually cares and listens to what I have to say, because in the end, the only friend

I can really trust is Yen and Him. But YOU? NEVER I don't trust you with anything

thats why I never tell you anything. I know you can't wait till I die but trust me, that

won't happen for a LONG time. so you can try all you want to ruin my life but in the

end, Im just going to rise above your drama and hatefulness and keep moving forward

because I know who I am and I know that if you would ever love me like you CLAIM

to do so, my best interest would always be in your mind. But no. It's not. I hate you,

everything, every little detail, about you. I can't wait until I am out of your life so you

can lie and say you don't have kids because the minute I turn 18, I'm not your daughter

anymore. So, just keep fucking up because when you call me everyday and say that you

miss me, Im going to remind you about all the times you tried to fuck up my life and

I won't talk to you. Then you can remember how rude and mean and ugly and nasty you

were to me and then THINK about why I won't talk to you anymore.

P.S FUCK YOU MOM.

- Haley

Drama, Drama, and... nope, just drama. -Nilsa

Yepp, so, I have officially been removed from the Emergency Locker. It's funny, because last year, I had a Bag of Wonders. We turned it into the Emergency Locker. It's kinda cool how my idea caught on so well.
My name has been lightly scribbled from the admissions list, symbolical of the fact that they "have no time for me anymore." Well, I took my stuff back, so now everyone can just be ashy for a while. Have fun.
They say that I stare at them CONSTANTLY. Then why are they the ones that know about every little thing that I do?!
At least now I know what that whole contract thing was about. And I was correct, it was about me. Once again, "yay."
At least the entire school has my back, even though it sometimes seems like only a few people. I hate the drama so much, and it's horrible to have an entire group of people who think that I love it. That I live for it. Trust me, I did not try to create any of this. I would never set myself up to loose my 9 Best Friends.

oh my goddd. ;(

Woww. so i jsut got off the phone with my mum and she filled me in on the small details about going with my dad. first things first, im not gonna officially move until next year, and and im going to visit him fer a weekend in march er april then im going fer a month er two in the summer. its insane that im actually doing this. i didnt think i actually would but here i am, going out to dinner with my mom to talk about what weekend i can leave. she told me the BASIC rules fer his house. rule number one: no cell phone until yer 16 or 17. rule number two: if i say no, its no. rule number three: if i tell you once you better run to do it. rule nuber four: i dont believe in abuse (thank God). and rule number 5: if you really do want to come live with me, ill make sure you dont leave until yer 18. does that not scare you? well anyways. rule number one has to be the worst. how else will i talk to my mum, sister, brother, grandparents or friends?! i mean i totally understand a house phone blah blah blahh. but geeshhh. he told my mom to tell me that when i go in march/april i better not have my phone with me. i was like wtf?! im still taking it -_- anyways. so ill go only fer a weekend jsut so he can lay down the rules and i can chill and get to know his new family and shyyat. im getting really freaked out like hes soooo different than when i last saw him five years ago. its weird and creepy. but anywayss. he lives in a 2 story house ith his gf, her two daughters (both like 20 er something), hes gfs brother er cousin er something, and one of the daughters has two kids, one 5 and the other 8. so the bad news is tha id have to live in the loft. no door for me :( anywayss. thats all the new info i have. going out with my mum, be back at like....6 or 7. good byee. oh! when i get backk ill blog about other things that totally pissed me off today -_-

i dont know anymore part dos -Brianna

so today im in a better mood. lets do topic by topic shall we? moving: im doing it. im sending my dad an e-mail in a few and then its just up to him. after that i dont really know what im doing really. idk when ill leave or whow ill get there or anything really. but my mom did tell me that we do have to court just to make sure hes fit to take care of me and all. speaking of my mom, shes really making me feel soooo bad fer leaving which i totally understand but still dudee, chill please? anyways thats basicly all the info ive got on that fer noww. PLAY: im in a play. i didnt get the role i wanted. i wanted Dorothy. i got the Red Queen. its alright i guess. but i wanted Dorothy. Oscar is Judson, Yahaira is Alice and Alexis Lane is Dorothy. you know i never liked her? shes really rude and stuck up. its kinda funny. anyways JESUS: yes he has his own topic thinggy suck it up! anywayss i told him that im moving to Arizona and he really didnt react much. he gave me a hug and apologized fer how everything went down between us which i thought was pretty nice of him. so then i started crying and he walked away (he didnt see me crying) nd then stoped in the middle of the hallway, called me, i turned around, and he goes "yer still going to California with me. and were gonna go live in Las Vagas, VIAAA LAS VAGAS" which made me cry so much harder cause while we were going out he swore that hed take me to Cali with him one day and we always said we were gonna either live in New York ( where i wanna live) or L.V (where he wants tolive) together so i thought it was pretty awesome hes keeping his promises :) well thats it fer noww :) im gonna write the e-mail then start practicing fer the play :D Goodbyee! oh before i go, hope everyone had an amazing day like i did :)

Goood(: - Haley

Ah No more Drama, Hopefully my mom won't be mad at me and I can stay om Thursday, and supposedly Francisco's coming on Thursday, he wants me to be there. I LUURRV Hannah Montana, like no joke! Well.. her old self, shes not slutty shes a fucking teen! Anyways, Mr Zachary is such an asshole and a two face person. Chaiya and I are doing flantastic (: I can't wait to go shoppingand SHIET I need to finish Ms Stuarts stupid thesis paper ... I dont even have a whole page. Anywayss.. I'd like to think of myself as One in a Million but I can't be entirely shur about that so.. lol. Ah Second Place always got a whole lot to provee, boyfriend number twooo. lol

I can't wait for this summer to HURRY UP and come! 120 days until summer(: I've been listening to music non stop since I got home. It's become my anti-drug for everything that pisses me off. I need to have some fun in my life, but with all the keeping up with grades and drama everywhere I turn, where do I go to have fun? I mean theres nothing really going on at the moment but I know that as soon as I say that out loud, something is going to happen. 1 2 0 DAYS UNTIL SUMMER Thats a lil over 3 months(:! YESSSSSSSSSSS. TAKS is going to suck assssss for science because I don't remember anything. and I think Math is going to be hard. but idk. we'll see! See yaa laterrs(:

i dont know anymore -Brianna

im so confused about everything. like honestly i dont even know if staying til the rest of the year is worth it. im tired of everyone, and everything bad happening. i reall amm... gotta eat. ill finish this blog laterrr

Whats Up? -Nilsa

First off, MoMo is in the hospital... something she very much does not deserve. I was pretty darn scared for her last night, but a text from Kerry tells me that shes going to be alright. :)

I also CANNOT wait for Spring Break. Galveston with Brianna and Lexi? I certainly hope so. It would be amazing x infinity and be a great stress relief for all of us.

I'm super happy that Brianna and Haley have everything worked out. I don't know if I could stand any more drama this year.

Brianna is moving on! I don't care what she says, I see it in her eyes! Happy day! I approve of her new intrest so far!

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And sometimes, happier. I mean, I'm walking down a very painful memory lane drinking from this mug my mom ordered a year ago with pictures of us on it. But really, I feel almost free now. The only think holding me back is...still them . The constant harassment has got to stop.

Things are going down hill- Breanna

ughh i dont know how im still alive. i seriously just feel like... dying. Today was soooo horrible. i wanna crawl under a rock take Oscar with me and just die down there. the reason fer Oscar having to go with me? my new best friend. i dont care about Jesus any more. okay thats a lie, but i dont wanna care about him anymore. thats really why i wanna move. er maybe everyones right, maybe i just need a break from everything. Spring Break '10 better be amazing. Galvaston with my two girls fer a whole week, sounds like a dream. since im getting in a better mood, lets talk good stuff first. i had auditions fer a play our school is having today, everyone is saying i did really good and that i should get the role i wanted *Dorthy* anywayss. i auditioned with Oscar, making it so much earier :) we both did really good. then i was totally able to vent to him. im soo happy that hes my friend. like honestly im not able to vent to anyone else like i did to himm :) so now fer the badd: i told you guys that Jesus' opinion ment the most to me right? bad idea. he really doesnt care about me. like his reaction was soo bad theres only two things that i remember A: he nodded and said well. B: he gave me a thumbs up. maybe he didnt hear the "its in Arizona" part but eiether way now i really just want to get out of here. March 15th please hurry up so i can clear my mind!! anyways then before the classes started Sonia saw him sucking his girlfriends face which almost made me cry. theeennn after classes i saw an EMS and i asked what happened and someone i know wasnt breathing. we were all freaked, shes doing better but still. thenn i went to HEB and i almost got hit by a car. i really just need a breakk. in a little bit im gonna talk to my mom about spring break and moving with my dad... wish me lucckkk Much Love- Breannaa

Blegh FML - Haleyy

Sooo much drama has been going on with keeping up with grades, and

friends. Plus I think I'm a bad girlfriend. Chaiya's been under so much stress

and I feel like I don't help at all. Plus I found out half the work that was 'missing'

I turned in. FUCK teachers! Ughhh! Plus idk about [. EHH! This is sooo hard... I love

Chaiya so much♥! =/ I don't like this feeling. Plus Momo was taken away by EMS today

Crazy shit... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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I ♥ The Secret Life Of The American Teenager and 16 & Pregnant and Teen Mom(:

Plus Me and Kerry are bff's again(:

LALALA ILY BLOG~! 9 Days Until me and Chaiya's anniversary. ♥

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