things happen fer a reason- Brianna

so today was the first day of
HIGH SCHOOL !!
it was amazing !!
first, my Schedule is
thee exact same as Martin
all 5 classes plus that hour of lunch
i have with him.
like today we didnt leave each others sides.
except fer after lunch.
but i dont mind cause its like
i dont want him to be bored around me all day
so when hes with his friends of course im gonna back off
nd all thatt
anyways,
in spanish,
i sat next to Martin nd like always
i pretended to get mad over a stupid thing
its like our game that we always play
anyways during class he snuck a kiss on the cheek
and a short little make out.
and in a few classes he whispered "i love you" a couple times
nd thoughs things,
every single time, hed do one of them.
gave me butterflies.
bitterflies that went crazy and tried to get out of my tummy
but couldnt
it was suuuch an amazing day. i dont think today couldve been any better..
i take that back,
i didnt get to give martin his surprise
nd i didnt get mine,
but hopefully tomorrow !!
i guess i just have to wait(:
*after lunch we go into the courtyard... without teachers(:*

sooo - Brianna

So in the past ive dated the stupidest people.
for example
Jesus and Riley
nough said with Riley
And with Jesus..
i dunno it was a trial and error
so you know that was just wrong in so many ways.
then theres Jason and Seth.
two different kinds of stupid.
Jason was a good boyfriend,
but when we were ex's fer the first time
he was a total dick to me.
thats not okay with me.
and Seth,
same shit,
plus hes just stupid periodd.
out of these theres two that i wish i could take back.
Riley and Seth.
and then theres the guy im with Now
Martin.
the best friend who the main character in a movie falls in love with
the guy you want in yer life ferever no matter what.
the guy who knows all yer secrets before anyone else
who knows what not to say around you
and what to tell you to make you feel better.
the guy who gives you that fairytale life,
or night.
and in life theres always that one ex that you stay close friends with no matter what
and fer me, its him.
in that month more or less that we werent together,
we were best friends.
kinda like me and jesus except ten times better.
anyways, my point in all of this is to tell you about this morning.
i was on facebook talking to Isaac and Anthony
and then Jason logs in and chats me.
basically, he was asking me to cheat on martin with him.
or choice b: break up with him.
i asked him if he was serious er just wondering
he said 69 percent serious.
and then i asked him about plan b
and he said 98/2 !!
i told martin about it,
and he messaged him.
and then Jason denies being serious about it !!
he said "it was just a plain and simple question"
see thats why im never giving a jason another chance.
NEEEVERRRR
i mean doesnt he know that im happy with Martin ?
doesnt he know that i love him ?
and doesnt he know that i dont want to lose him ?
that he means soo much to me
that he leaves me speechless and lost for words
that he makes me feel like ive never felt before?
and even if he didnt know this,
he shouldnt be asking me to do that shit,
especially if i have a boyfriend,
and he has a girlfriend.
hes so.. stupid..
ughh.
just giving me more to vent to to my chicas tomorrow at our GNO(:

:D -Brianna

So on Tuesday while at practice,
i hit myself in the head.
i threw my flag up 6 ft,
and then it came and hit me.
went to the doctors,
then they sent me to the ER
i got there around 8
and i didnt leave til 11
it was crazy
i was nervous and scared
and excited and in a way,
i felt like i finally completed something
ive always wanted to get hurt,
break something twist it sprain it,
whatever
i mean you think that as a kid youll break yer arm at least once
i never have,
never been to the hosital much less the ER fer anything.
so when i went tuesday i was like excited
it was thee scarriest thing ive ever been put through
it was insane !
one of the nurses that helped me
was in color guard when she was in high school
she told me she broke her nose twice,
and showed me this nast y scar she got from a rifle :D
it was amazing, in a weird way.
anyways when i got home i called martin to let him know how i was doing and everything
he asked me if i was going to new techs orientation,
i said i didnt know it depended on how i was feeling nd then later on
i decided i wouldnt go.
i told him that
then he got kinda quiiet and said "oh well.. um.. i kinda got into new tech and i was gonna surprise you by going to the orientation"
MARTIN GOT INTO NEW TECH!!
im soo happy about this .
like i knew he was gonna get in but i thought maybe around december
maybe even next year
so when he told me that
i like freaked outt.
we talked about doing long distance if he doesnt get in,
but i hate doing long distance.
i really just cannot stand long distance,
but i know that i can trust him,
and he wouldnt cheat
so like im always saying, Hes the only Exception.
but now that were gonna be at the same high school fer the next four years
that wont be needed(:

everythings stupid right now- brianna

Color guard is killing me little by little
we have three rutines were learning right now
all three need to be perfected by the 20th
since thats our last day of practice fer a week
were only preforming 2 of them,
but the third one we might do at the first football game (27th)
depending on how ready it is.
aside from all the pain,
its a lot of fun
today we got a new girl
quick learner
and almost at the same place in our dance that we are.
thats a good thing
plus were already talking about make up and costumes and junk
pluuuus on my breaks or any time i can sneak to my phone
im texting Martin,
who makes me feel..
so perfect.
he puts me on this pedestal
showing me off,
and telling me how much he loves me
and how he feels about me
and somehow hearing all of it,
and even just a simple "so hows practice"
makes it... worth all the pain.
like somehow it makes me wanna practice harder,
and get my tosses higher,
and my angles perfect.
and every night i ahve a count down to 9
cause thats when i get to talk to him.
i can talk to him until 11 ishh
about anything and everything.
but today...
i didnt put away the dishes before i left fer practice
and my mom came home and got mad
the first thing she does when me and my sister get into the car
is yell at us.
like not an "hi how was practice"
but instead its a lecture.
and she said that by 9:30 i have to be off the phone..
i dun think she realizes that i can only talk to him after nine
i mean yes i text him all day
but its not the same.
like it just bothers me that she has to take away my phone privileges
fer something so stupidd...

Everythings going down hill.-Brianna

things are so
bad
everythings wrong
its not supposed to be like this
were supposed to be friends
everythings supposed to be at least okay
but no.
its all wrong
today i started thinking about my dad.
partially because of nilsas post
but mostly because i told someone a secret about him
when i was supposed to move with him to Arizona
i ended up staying.
not because i didnt want to,
or it was too much,
or even because my mom convinced me to stay
but because he didnt want me to..
it hurt me so much when he told me up front
"i cant have kids ruining my life, even if they are mine"
i've never admitted to myself how much it hurt me until now.
until today.
until i realized how much guys tend to hurt me.
like i find it horrible that my dad doesnt know a single thing about me.
from the smallest things like
my favorite color,
or what i wanna be when i grow up
to the big stuff like
my age.
he doesnt remember how old i am.
like thats not okay
hes my dad,
yeah he wasnt there when i was born,
but im sure he got a call
like was i really that BIG of a mistake!?
and yeah, fer the first time,
ive finally admitted to myself,
and to everyone,
that i was the mistake child.
its not that big of a deal
but like it sucks knowing that
you were the kids the parents didnt really want.
im sure my moms greatful fer such amazing kids,
but still i always keep that in the back of my mind.
today me and martin talked about things that have been on my mind fer a while
i dun even know if we ended the conversation on a good note,
i dunt know if its okay to text him tomorrow,
i dont know if were ever gonna talk again.
its obvious that i was just a back up.
he practically told me so.
the way he makes everything sound,
its like... i dunno.
i just have high doubts in us ever getting back together
and at this point i dont even care.
like im just so done, waiting around,
waiting fer my heart get broken.
thats all im really doing,
just waiting around for him to wake up and realize
that he never loved me,
and that hes done with him.
nmaybe its better it ended this way.
everythings out on the table,
nothings left inside of me to say to him,
and now, im okay to move on without feeling guilty.
when my mom gets home im gonna talk to her about
going to the district offices and let me transfer
to McCallum high
possibly not my freshman year
but fer sure sophomore and up.
i just want to go to a school thatll actually get me further in life.
like im not doing anything with Tech.
so why would i go to New TECH ?!
Mccallums got a great arts program so i mean
why not just go there right??!
*****************
Brianna**

Same Ole Same Ole- Brianna(:

Everythings...
Okay.
like
theres nothing to freak out about...
anymore.
like
how after the storm,
the waves are calm
the sky is blue
everything,
is better
in some way
does that make sense ?
like last week was NOT my week
at all
but so far this week isnt bad at all
i mean im trying to talk my mom into moving,
my sisters always making homemade cookies,
my singing voice is getting better (i thinkk)
and me and martin...
me and martin..
thats a problem
there is no me and martin
and its weird.
like when were on the phone,
or texting,
or when im simply just thinking about him
i forget that we broke up.
thats never happened with any other of my ex's
Like the way we act towards each other,
the things we tell one another,
its things youd tell your best friend,
and then more.
and its not just me.
he says he forgets sometimes too
for example
we were on the phone
2 nights ago,
and we were joking around about him tutoring me
he was like "yeah ill give yer mom my resume,
ill be like
'yeah hm i can tutor your daughter Brianna Sanchez
...ha uhh i mean Miller"
(not putting my real last name, or his xD)
so see,
he fergets too
and it sucks to think that like
even though we want to,
or at least I want to,
we cant.
i always say follow yer gut instinct
but theres always certain times when you should just
listen to yer heart
or head
and go with the flow..
you know lately i feel like..
like hes gonna make up his mind.
like Since Sunday morning
we havent had a single conversation about Lexi
that doesnt mean hes thinking about her,
it just...
i dont know what it means
but like its cool to know that our conversations are gonna be
funny
or boring
or the FUN
instead about how he feels about my best friend.
not that its a bad thing when he tells me
cause i mean im always gonna be there fer him no matter what
its just,
its hard giving him advice because the advice i would tell someone else
would sound like i just want him to ferget about her, move on,
and ask me back out,
when really, i dun care about that
i just want him doing whats best fer him
and what makes him happy.
weather it be me,
or waiting around fer lexi.
see back to us acting as if we didnt break up,
a few nights ago we were on the phone
and listening to music
he said i have two songs
There Goes My Baby- Usher
and
Your Love- Nikkie minaj
and i gave him one
Trouble- Nevershoutnever
i couldve thought of a better one but thats the first one i saw nd was like
yeah totally fer him
anyways
then he said OUR song is
got your back t.i ft keri hilson
makes sense.
because we do have each others back,
no matter what happens.
so i might move
into the real Manor
not where i live now.
and i found two houses that i like that are in
guess whos neighborhood ?
Martins.
i showed the one i like the most to my mom
she said she liked it
but that we cant move right now.
not cool.
i have my reasons fer wanting to move
and yet she doesnt get it
like she told me to make sure its okay with everyone...
its okay with everyone (minus her)
she said make sure itll be better than it is here
its better than it is here!!!
like the house itself
is bigger.
theres two parks.
and then a huge one like 5 minutes away
theres a dollar general like right next to the entrance to the neighborhood
its two stories,
and its cheaper than this house.
i mean you gotta lose money to make money right ?
i guess...
its just the Same Ole Same Ole in my lifee..
************
:)Brianna(:

"Listen to your heart, before you tell him goodbye"

my second post today-B R I A N NA

so obviously there's a lot on my mind fer this to be my second post today.
things have gotten better since this morning,
and then not so much
Mia's home, and doing fine.
i mean she just lays next to me all day
its really cute she hasn't left my side all day..
until now.
but still.
The vet said she just needs rest
which is understandable
Bella makes her run around to muchh
ha.
My house has been pretty stressful lately..
or maybe its just me.
i feel like lately,
ive been getting yelled at more than usual,
for things that arent my fault
like
me and my mom just arent seeing eye to eye
not that we ever do
just lately its harder getting along
nd it sucks cause my brothers always in the middle of everything
he's 11 i hate giving him so much pressure
but its like hes the one i run to
i know i have Lexi, Nilsa, Shelby, Haley, and Mileena
behind me 100% but its just easier to go to my brother
and when i tell anyone else whats wrong with me
i feel like im asking fer their pity
like if i tell Isaac or Martin small things
like my dad, ive never gone into detail with either one of them,
about that
not that i dont want to, just simply
that i dont want them feeling bad for me
my girl friends i dont really mind because well..
its easier talking to girls
and i dun know.
i realized i dont tell guys about me.
i tel them simply whats on the surface..
such as, i love my brown eyes
but ive never told them that i had a SLIGHT pill
problem that ended as soon as i took the last one in the bottle
its just easier keeping it to myself and my girls
i mean i trust Martin with things like that
but i dun know i feel that if he knew things like that
about me, hed feel like he needs to take care of me,
and same with Isaac..
...
you know its funny.
both of them did the same thing when i brought up my dad once
isaac said "you know thats the first time ive heard you talk about him, whys that"
martin said "your dad, i have a question about him, why dont you talk about him?"
i love how niether of them asked, until i brought it up.
it made it kinda easier to tell them,
like now its because theyre curious
not because they want a sob story
make sense?
but anyways
so recently ive been debating weather to wait fer martin or not
nd just now,
that ive had time to let me think
and think about the things i miss
and how much he means to me
i know that im not gonna pass up the chance
to keep him in my life
weather it be as my boyfriend,
or simply just a best friend that i can go to
when i need to.
hes a great guy,
he has flaws and
he means so much to me.
like i said i dont even care if we jsut stay friends
ive realized that i dont need a boyfriend,
theyre nice to have,
but theyre not needed.
i mean duh ill do what ever it takes to be with him,
but i mean things happen fer a reason and hey,
ive learned my lesson :)
so point is,
I'll make an exception and wait.

here we go again... -B R I A N N A

im wearing that mask again.
for the same reason and then
other reasons.
My amazingly annoying dog that i love with every bone in my body
Mia
is at the vet
her nose is uberly wet,
shes limping
and no one knows why
if i lose her, then...
i dun wanna think about what id do without her
then of course theres Martin
were really close friends nd i love it
were calling each other babe
and saying i love you
but now that weve gone out and broken up,
its different
and maybe thats why he still wants to do it,
who knows
but im not getting my hopes up at all this timee...

just one of those moods..B R I A N N A

this weeks gonna be that one week every so often where like nothing can go right. sound familiar to anyone? it sucks cause.. i dun know im just tired of being "depressed".. im kidding im not depressed. but im far from happy. Martin doesnt make things easy fer me at all, my moms been frustrated lately nd yells at me a lot, nd today both my grandparents are getting surgery.

Martins on my mind 24/7 and it sucks cause i know im not on his. like okay yesterday he explained to me his "list" of girls he likes. 1.Malenie 2.Maria 3.Lexi 4.Me. he said that Malenie moved on, he has no chance with Lexi, nd Maria possibly has a bf i dun know thoughh. so see basically the only girl he has a chance with is me, but some advice my mom gave me? "a MAN never makes a lady wait" nd Ive been debating about thatt, and came to the conclusion that id rather know i wasted time, then gave up an opportunity. does that make sense? i dun knoww. like i told him that yesterday nd the way he answered was just.. weird like i should move on.
maybe i should, itll make it easier on him anyways right?
ughh this is soo debatable nd im soo confused
i love him so much but i dun wanna be put through something so...
pointless
so what ive decided to do is take Isaaxs advice which is something i never thought id do.
like im still debating it *of course* butt
he said to just like stop talking to him so much cause then he wont be so confused about it
buttt knowing Martin he'll think i just stoped liking him
so again
i dun know what to do.
like what i was telling isaac was that if he really "loved me" he wouldnt be effing confused
but then isaac said "you love him right? look how confused you are"
makes sense.
i replied"im not confused about who i love"
then Martin called so we got off the phone.
so i mean we make good points
now the only question is whos right?

Sighh.. -B R I A N N A

So this morning i woke up with 2 missed calls and a text from Martin. the text said to call him as soon as i wake up. i called him. he broke up with me, after he begged me two days ago not to break up with him.

We got into a fight while i was at Galveston with Nilsa. nd i almost broke up with him but i gave him one more chance, nd now today, he breaks up with me. its really weird. im only mad because he swore he didnt. he swore the day before he asked me out, he swore a few days into our "relationship", he swore it Monday Night, and Wednesday night all the way up until Thursday night. then this morning, he breaks up with me cause he loves her.. its really weird. nd like i don't even know if im sad about the break up. like i think deep down i know we wouldn't last because of his feelings for her. im not mad because its what he had to do, but there's this feeling inside. possibly jealously? no not even just regret? i don't know. but like i try explaining to him how i feel but then he replies saying he feels bad nd i don't want him to but he needs to know.. and he says he loves me as a friend and i cant say it back because i don't love him as a friend i love him so much more than that but.. i always say things happen fer a reason, and to think positive. but its really hard when you don't even know how you feel about the situation. i hate lying to people but i have to lie to him. i have to tell him im okay and that i don't mind that he did it and that i want to be his friend but its so... not true. im not okay at all. i hate that he broke up with me. i don't want to be his friend, because i want to be more. i told him i bounce back quickly nd he believes that i don't love him or even like him. if only he knew that i was telling him all that to make him feel better. if only he knew that i wish soo badly i could be more like Lexi.. if only right? if only...

Of course i have this act like wow it doesnt really effect me nd i show that to everyone minus Martin ish.. i still act like im fine but he knwos that im hurt more than anyone.. well i guess anyone who reads this knows too but my point is that i hate having to wear that "mask" for everyone. like i know i dont have to act like i dont care but i do because weakness is stupid to me. like i dont think more than 3 people have seen me cry. nd like my brother, i cant let him know that a guy makes me cry. he hasnt seen me cry in just about 4 years. ever since Fatima died, and even then i tried so hard not to let him see me.

Its really hard texting him cause usually when the convo gets boring one of us would try to make the other blush or say something cute. or just a simple "i love you babe" nd now we cant do that. and every time he texts me and i smile i just remember everything nd then i stop. and my eyes water and its a stupid process.

wanna see something funny? "Haha hmmm ok i'll think about it ok? Hmm i miss saying ily babe ...:(" that's a text from him. i felt like reply "no you don't cause first you didn't mean it and second if you did you wouldn't have broken up with me" instead i ignored the second part and acted as if i didn't see it.. likei know hes only trying to be nice by saying all the things he says like calling himself a jerk saying he feels bad, and saying things like that but it just makes it so much harder fer me..

Hes the first guy to break up with me.. technically. the other two i dont count cause one was more neutral and the other one he ended up asking me back out. anyways so the fact that hes the first, makes it so much harder. like not only did he hurt me, hes the first to. but i dont know like if he knew half the stuff in here things between us would be so different.. possibly awkward. but that could possibly be something i wouls risk jsut to tell him i love him once more...

" I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserverd
I guess I should've been more like her "

gahhhh!!!!!!!!!-Brianna

I'm going insane in this house.. literally i cannot wait til school starts again. I'll admit we fight more during the school year because there's a lot going on, but when we fight over the summer, they're huge fights. lots of yelling involved.


this is just stupid. okay so i asked to go to Florida/Georgia for two weeks with one of my best friends. its a long time and very far, but its with my best friend of 2 years. its not like it was someone else who i hardly knew, who jsut invited me out of no where. so anyways it was a free trip all expenses paid. i told her all the details, and gave her time to think. infact i gave her about 2 weeks to think. she still said no. i was mad but i got over it. Today my sister asked to go outta state with her BOYFRIEND, who she lost her v card to, for 3 weeks. my mom yelled at her, then said "fine"

is it me or is that just not fair?! like honestly think about it, compare them, if you had a daughter and she asked you to pick between letting her go fer 2 weeks with her best friend nd her family, or with her boy friend and no one else, which would you choose?! i've posted this on myspace facebook twitter nd even here, but once again, i state, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY MOMS THINKING!!

So since i was supposed to leave this up coming weekend, and im not, im trying to make plans, like going to nilsas house fer a few hours during the day, hanging at the mall, having shelby, lexi, or nilsa come over fer a few hours or spend the night... my mom yelled at me cause she doesnt want me making so many plans... shes really starting to piss me off.. like really?! im a fucking teenager, i can only do nothing for so long.

Martin leaves on Wednesday nd should be back thursady night. i was hoping to see him this weekend but no. first my mom said no. second. hes busy. its not fair! Alexis *my sister* gets to see her boyfriend like 5 days out of the 7 in the week. i know its easier fer her cause hes got a car and all but still.

im the kid my mom doesnt have to worry about yet she has a tighter leash on me than anyone else in this house. i dont understand why. im the one who has never sneaked out, never lied about where i was or who i was with, ive never come home with a grade lower than 71, im the one whos decided to "save herself til marriage" because of what my sister did, im the one who tells my mom everything that goes on in my life even though it seems as if she could care less. im the kid that has to act as two because my sister hardly talks to us anymore. yet she lets my sister go where ever with who ever when ever. its fucking stupid.

i dont think my sister understands what she has. she has the freedom to do whatever she wants yet she somehow found a way to fuck it up nd make my mom get all strict on us. even me, the one who hardly does anything bad minus forgetting to wash the dishes every so often. literally, the child anyone would kill for! im not trying to brag or anything but seriously! im an amazing kid! compared to 98% of teenagers out there, im practically perfect! but i somehow get stuck with a sister who lies, cheats, sneeks around, talks to much, tries to act like an adult, and thinks shes old enough to do whatever she wants. but you know what? if shes old enough to have sex, she should be old enough to pay her own bills, get a job, or even learn to fucking clean up after herself!

God... shes so fucking immature for a 15 year old... or maybe im just to mature for a soon to be 14 year old.

i just hate how i got stuck with a sister whos my total opposite. i know everyone says you should love your family and blah blah blah but honestly? its hard to love someone who causes so much pain, heart break and disappointment.

sighh i think ive let all my frustration out... now if only Martin would text me backk... :(

..wait i cant dance! -Brianna

okay so thats true but that has nothing with what im about to talk about.. like at all. so my boyfriend is in LA fer the week. it sucks cause he can hardly text but i understand cause i know hes out there having funn. okay so he just texted me :) anyways.

not much is happening at mi casa, its the same old same old. go to bed around 3-4, wake up around 11, watch tv, get on the computer, clean, sleep. oh and in there i manage to fit text... a lot. but ive gotten a new neighbor recently who happens to be one of my very close friends. so im helping fer move in. shes taking boxes over today nd in about 20-35 mins im going over again to help her :)

when shes in and settled, which will be by at the latest tuesday, were gonna be able to have movie nights all the time, my mom and hers can make coffee runs, with donuts like they did last... in 7th grade. we can movie nights til 3 am and then i can walk home or she can walk home, or we can stay the night since were just down the street. its gonna be really awesome

i just cant wait til school starts, like now i wish i was going to manor high, cause now much fun would it be, to get ready with haley, nd then wait at the bus stop together, and walk in on our first day with already so many inside jokes. that and martin's still not into new tech which sucks a lot. like its my education, but i really am thinking about just transfering to manor high cause i dont wanna try a long distance. so i guess well just see how it all goes :)

now i am off to go unpack boxes with my neighbor :D

Today was a fairytale -Brianna

I think it was today :) haha okay well first martin asked me out at midnight.... he wrote me a poem to do it :D it was sooo beautiful I'm really sad we cant put hearts here, but if we could there would be about 20 of em right about here <-ha kidding.. but seriously. hes like super amazing and now i cant wait til we see each other in person. yesterday we were like joking around but we literally planned our life together. I'm gonna be an actress/singer owning a 14 bedroom 20 acre house/lot living with Cesi, Lexi, and Nilsa, and then my bro, Isaac and martin. Mark*my bro* is gonna be an artist, Martin is gonna be a basketball player fer the LA Lakers :D us four girls will all be doing something in the entertainment industry, and Isaac is the maid. me and martin are gonna have two kids of our own, one boy, one girl, and then adopt one *not sure if its gonna be a girl or boy yet* and after he wins his games, I'm gonna run down to the court with the kids and he'll kiss me then the kids, then we'll drive home. and then every chance he gets hes taking the kids to all my concerts :D isn't it nice? well my attitude totally just changed cause i found out were going out to dinner as a family.. :).... with Stephen.... bull... i am off nowwww...

Boys, Boys, Boys... -Brianna

I don't understand them... they're so... complicated. Let me give you a list of how complicated my "love" life can be. One, Jesus. Two, Jason. Three, SETH. FOUR. MARTIN. four guys I have to juggle with. jesus, were never getting back together, thats a duh! moment. but he's been calling me behind his girlfriend's back and it bugs me because of what Jason and Seth did to me. Jason, we broke up and I feel terrible about it, but theres no possible way we can get back together, it's out of my control. you know? Seth: lying, cheating, jackass. nuff saidd. Martin, oh geez.. Martin. hes so... perfect. and amazing. and sweet. and the worst part? hes so considerate of everyones feelings. So I listed perfect amazing and considerate of everyones feelings. Why is this a bad thing? Because that's whats keeping him from asking me out. He likes two other girls and he doesnt think it's fair that he goes out with anyone while he likes anyone else. But I mean hey, if it's ment to happen it'll work out. It always works out fer the best rightt? :)

everything can change in 24 hours -Brianna

for example. i found out Seth was cheating on his GIRLFRIEND.....with me. yes.. he had a girlfriend. names Leana I think thats it. wanna see our convo?
me: hey uhh.. someone told me to ask you about someone named lena? idk.. but im askingg. (sent at 5)
*no response**
me: hey movies are canceled on sat. sorry *sent at 7*
seth: y *sent at 7:05*
*our texts were constant now*
me: just changed plans..
seth: y
me: we just did its not that big of a deal jeez..
seth: wow ur lying
me: okay whatever you dont have to believe me i really dont care anymore
seth: whats with the attitude
me: ask lena she might know
seth: okay idc. whats your problem? you knwo what i dont care yer not my problem anymore. and spell her name right damn.
seth: oh and its over
me: naww reallyy?? okay but see i dont understand why yer getting all pissed at me im not the one who did this shit. *sent at 11:something*

still 12 hours later, havent heard anything from him. oh well. like he said, im not his problem hes not mine. i dont care. im just pissed he did this. clean slate... gone. hes full of himself anyways..

so right after i got the "spell her name right" text jesus called me. outta the blueee. just called me. he told me seth is being a "dick wad" lol. it was fun talking to him but its like, why are you calling me tonight, when im crying and sounding horrible? but at least i got to talk to himm.

so after we hung up, i started texting martin. yes martin. hes so amazingg. he sorta asked me out but he said hes giving me time from boys cause of what seth did. ha. i do like martin but him nd lexi, i dont even wanna bring it up to her. like thats back stabbing her. sortaa... but i guess we'll just see what happens :)

thats about it.. i guess. i sttiiiill dont know my answer fer fl, but as soon as i know ill blog about it. even if its just 3 words. haha :))