Weird... O.o - Lauren

I'm sitting in my room listening to the people in the other room rant about my mother. Dan dropped by to say Hi, so the boys (Dad, uncle bryan, Jim (brother), and Dan) are catching up, and that involves a lot of the same conversations about my mother. The funny part is, I've had very similar exchanges with a few people, including Nilsa. What brings this up, is that the mother I haven't seen since September who didn't even bother to tell me she was getting re-married joined facebook and friended some of my dad's friends, so of course he saw her wedding picture on there, and he's been all weird about it since. But ya know. Same ol, Same ol. The only thing that really bugs me is that I have a lot of stuff set to friends and networks, and we have some mutual friends, so she's part of networks. It creeps me out to think of her going through all my photos and statuses. It's not below her, she's showed up at my choir concerts without warning and then snuck back out again without a word at the end. It's bizzare.

On another note... I went to the pool with my friend yesterday, I was on facebook chat and I just got a chat from him saying he wanted to go to the pool, and didn't like going public places alone cuz it seems sad, so I went swimming with him, and the moment I said I was going out Dad and Jim were both like where're you going who're you going with etc etc, which was fine until they both decided to ask favors. Dad wanted a ride to the store cuz our car is in the shop, and Jim wanted to go with us cuz Brandon wouldn't take him to the pool. I told dad I didn't really want to ask him favors, and when I resignedly said Jim wanted to go he said No. XD It was pretty funny. But dad, after I asked about Jim and he was begging me to make him let Jim go, Dad just said "Jim... A cute boy asked Lauren to go to the pool with him, we'll hang out, it'll be fine." I denied, He's got a girlfriend, and JIm was like "Yeah, he's not her type anyways." I was like... Whaaat? I have a type? and if I did, how the hellz would you know about it? But yeah. So we went to the pool, we hung out, I discovered that it is possible to cut yourself with half a foam football, it was fun. ^_^ Then he took me home, we wandered around my house for a bit, he didn't really want to return home cuz he's grounded, his parents let him go to the pool cuz it's exercise. But he left eventually, and when he did dad muted his game, looked over at me, and was like. "Lauren, I'm not saying he's an awful person who would cheat on his girlfriend or anything, but... He likes you. At least, that's the signals he's giving off." and he rambled a bit, I went back to my room, took a shower, and damn him but I couldn't stop thinking about it. X.X I dunno how that works, He has a girlfriend, he liked another friend of ours, but that didn't work out, they are both pretty, skinny, tan, not really at all like me. =P I dunno, stupid mental block that won't believe anything like that. Happened last time too. Montanna got all mad at me. =/ But yeah. So I dunno what's going on or if dad's right, but it's a nice thought I suppose. Also, he left his key in my bag, and still has yet to come back and get it. P=

Well... That's my update for ya. I'm really bored sitting here at home, but OMG I can't wait for Potter Camp. *heart* this should be so fun. =3 i'm really excited for it, I'm staying at Nilsa's, a week out of thr house with somebody so awesome is gonna be great. XD I love my family... But living with three very high-strung guys get a liiiiiittle crazy and grating sometimes. V.V But hey. Week and a half!

I'm out!
~~Lauren~~

just one of those moods..B R I A N N A

this weeks gonna be that one week every so often where like nothing can go right. sound familiar to anyone? it sucks cause.. i dun know im just tired of being "depressed".. im kidding im not depressed. but im far from happy. Martin doesnt make things easy fer me at all, my moms been frustrated lately nd yells at me a lot, nd today both my grandparents are getting surgery.

Martins on my mind 24/7 and it sucks cause i know im not on his. like okay yesterday he explained to me his "list" of girls he likes. 1.Malenie 2.Maria 3.Lexi 4.Me. he said that Malenie moved on, he has no chance with Lexi, nd Maria possibly has a bf i dun know thoughh. so see basically the only girl he has a chance with is me, but some advice my mom gave me? "a MAN never makes a lady wait" nd Ive been debating about thatt, and came to the conclusion that id rather know i wasted time, then gave up an opportunity. does that make sense? i dun knoww. like i told him that yesterday nd the way he answered was just.. weird like i should move on.
maybe i should, itll make it easier on him anyways right?
ughh this is soo debatable nd im soo confused
i love him so much but i dun wanna be put through something so...
pointless
so what ive decided to do is take Isaaxs advice which is something i never thought id do.
like im still debating it *of course* butt
he said to just like stop talking to him so much cause then he wont be so confused about it
buttt knowing Martin he'll think i just stoped liking him
so again
i dun know what to do.
like what i was telling isaac was that if he really "loved me" he wouldnt be effing confused
but then isaac said "you love him right? look how confused you are"
makes sense.
i replied"im not confused about who i love"
then Martin called so we got off the phone.
so i mean we make good points
now the only question is whos right?