Boys, Boys, Boys... -Brianna

I don't understand them... they're so... complicated. Let me give you a list of how complicated my "love" life can be. One, Jesus. Two, Jason. Three, SETH. FOUR. MARTIN. four guys I have to juggle with. jesus, were never getting back together, thats a duh! moment. but he's been calling me behind his girlfriend's back and it bugs me because of what Jason and Seth did to me. Jason, we broke up and I feel terrible about it, but theres no possible way we can get back together, it's out of my control. you know? Seth: lying, cheating, jackass. nuff saidd. Martin, oh geez.. Martin. hes so... perfect. and amazing. and sweet. and the worst part? hes so considerate of everyones feelings. So I listed perfect amazing and considerate of everyones feelings. Why is this a bad thing? Because that's whats keeping him from asking me out. He likes two other girls and he doesnt think it's fair that he goes out with anyone while he likes anyone else. But I mean hey, if it's ment to happen it'll work out. It always works out fer the best rightt? :)

everything can change in 24 hours -Brianna

for example. i found out Seth was cheating on his GIRLFRIEND.....with me. yes.. he had a girlfriend. names Leana I think thats it. wanna see our convo?
me: hey uhh.. someone told me to ask you about someone named lena? idk.. but im askingg. (sent at 5)
*no response**
me: hey movies are canceled on sat. sorry *sent at 7*
seth: y *sent at 7:05*
*our texts were constant now*
me: just changed plans..
seth: y
me: we just did its not that big of a deal jeez..
seth: wow ur lying
me: okay whatever you dont have to believe me i really dont care anymore
seth: whats with the attitude
me: ask lena she might know
seth: okay idc. whats your problem? you knwo what i dont care yer not my problem anymore. and spell her name right damn.
seth: oh and its over
me: naww reallyy?? okay but see i dont understand why yer getting all pissed at me im not the one who did this shit. *sent at 11:something*

still 12 hours later, havent heard anything from him. oh well. like he said, im not his problem hes not mine. i dont care. im just pissed he did this. clean slate... gone. hes full of himself anyways..

so right after i got the "spell her name right" text jesus called me. outta the blueee. just called me. he told me seth is being a "dick wad" lol. it was fun talking to him but its like, why are you calling me tonight, when im crying and sounding horrible? but at least i got to talk to himm.

so after we hung up, i started texting martin. yes martin. hes so amazingg. he sorta asked me out but he said hes giving me time from boys cause of what seth did. ha. i do like martin but him nd lexi, i dont even wanna bring it up to her. like thats back stabbing her. sortaa... but i guess we'll just see what happens :)

thats about it.. i guess. i sttiiiill dont know my answer fer fl, but as soon as i know ill blog about it. even if its just 3 words. haha :))

Oh Jesus... -Brianna

I wish upon every little twinkling thing up in that big blue-black sky of ours that I can go to Florida and Georgia!! I find out tonight if I can go or not, if I can, I've got 5 days to pack, because we leave in 6. how can I pack for two weeks in 5 days?? packing takes time... especially for us girls. But anyways so yes, tonight I find out if I go or not. It's up to my grandpa I guess. really, if he was my dad, I'd be screwed.

But anyways so heres what I've been up to, I went to seths party on saturday. it started at 4... i got there at 7. make the boys wait ;) haha. me and lexi were the only girls there which made it soo much easier to turn them on... and trust, we DID turn them on. lexi had a jollyrancher, and I took it with my teeth, from her mouth. haha. the guys were all like freaked out, and martin and seth asked if we were bi, we replied "we just know how to have fun" muahaha anyways we had a water fight and it was soo much fun. the only thing that pissed me off a little was that seth kept squirting me down my shirtt. but i guess boys will be boys. sadly, he didnt once kiss me or get even close to kissing me. but I guess I wont complain. we're going to the movies on saturday with Lexi and Kenneth and we're just gonna chill until like 4:30 cause that's when I have to be home x(

Last night I stayed up talking to seth 'til almost 1 AM half the time I was like half asleep. he asked me what I first thought of him when I first saw him that one day on the bus. I told him the truth, I didnt really pay attention to him. He told me he had confidence and knew we would go out one day, and that he thought I was beautiful :) see things like that make me feel... I don't know, but I got this feeling in my stomach. like out of the 3 guys I dated this year, not one could call me beautiful and the fact that he still tried to get with me when I was with jason was... and is... flattering :)haha
But anyways we pulled his charm yesterday and said while playing a baseball video game "If i strike this guy out, were going out."


he got his strike out, i got my guy :)