Hypocrites- Brianna

as much as we hate them
were all one at times
but its not exactly a hypocrite..
in a way.
but anyones wanna know whos a big one ?
my sister.
yep the stupid 15 year old that i call...Hermana.
she caught me and martin making out on tuesday.
and she told me not to do it again.
im not listening to her.
sorry but no.
anyways, today Mario (her ex my big brother)
told her he saw us kissing today
she started yelling and scolding me infront of her friends.
she told me to not do that in public and that its not classy.
i told her " im not taking advice from someone who cant take it themselves "
and i walked away.
i know shes just looking out fer me and making sure i dunt do what she did
but still.
i know when to stop.
i know when not to make out with someone.
she doesnt.
she knows less than i do which in im opinion,
is quite sad.

My Sister...-Brianna

Shes so..
stupid.
thats the nicest thing i can say right now.
shes fergetful
and just flat out stupid.
She "ment" to ask my mom if her boyfriend
could pick us up from practice,
and then have him stay over fer a while.
she fergot to talk to my mom.
about everything,
but fergot to tell him,
that she fergot to talk to my mom
stupid yes ?
anyways so he texts me telling me that hes picking us up and that hes outside already
i thought well i mean maybe mom sent him
so i was like i guess if i have to
then i go tell my sister,
and she asks me "did you tell mom"
so then i told her,
she knew nothing about it
and was soo mad when she found out,
i made Stephen leave
and we ended up going home with Brooke.
but anyways before we left i ewas trying to help my sister put her stuff away
cause brroke was rushing
nd she was taking to long,
all she did was slap my hand away
like really is that necessary?!

i need to get away.- brianna

far from here.
far from "home"
far from the problems that are here
far from the boys
far from my phone.
far from everything
just clear my mind
fix my emotions
and get my mask back
lately i've let my gaurd down
and took off my mask
nd i dun like it
its just,
not me.
i dun know
i wish i could go back to
Galveston
the beach.
the amazing
relaxing
beautiful
peaceful
beach.
so calming
and with the waves wash away any doubts
and neggitivity
and clear youre thoughts
and its just...
perfect there.
even when the waves get crazy
like its the one thing you know will always be there fer you
unless...
one day yer mom makes you move half way across the country,
and now the thing that made you so happy,and was only 5 minutes away
is now, four hours away.
and its just not the same.
i dun know.
i guess the beach is symbolic to me.
since in Texas ive been happy,
but i havent been as happy as i was at home
texas isnt home
i guess the Beach is the one thing that always kept me happy
i mean in G-ston
i felt like a little girl again
all my worries dissapeard.
like i didnt even care that i was in a fight with Martin
nothing else mattered
i miss it.
thats the one thing i can say i love with everything in my body
i guess i just need to i dun know
get away.
well im going out tonight
i dun know what time ill get back
but who cares,
my sisters here with her boyfriend again
so my moms got a lot on her plate
shitt...
if i told my mom half the things i know...
if only..

Ohmagod... -Brianna

I sware... my sister is something... "special." ughh shes so frickin stupid. she goes to bed at like one in the morning, and doesnt wake up til about noon. i go to bed at like four, and im up by 9:30 at the latest. so today my aunt calls looking fer my moms number. i knew it but i fergot it since now all i do is just text her. anyways so i wake my sister up asking her to give it to my aunt,and she tells me to go away, then i ask her to just give it to me, (the same thing shed be doing if she gave it to my aunt) so she does, i get off the phone with my aunt, and then i remember, "i thought there was an extension?" her response? "well you didnt wait long enough to let me give it to you" uhh, no. yes i did, its just that yer stupid ass fergot! ughhh she really annoys me. like with everything she does. either, ive got a bad case of hormones, or shes changed in a very bad wayy..

gahhhh!!!!!!!!!-Brianna

I'm going insane in this house.. literally i cannot wait til school starts again. I'll admit we fight more during the school year because there's a lot going on, but when we fight over the summer, they're huge fights. lots of yelling involved.


this is just stupid. okay so i asked to go to Florida/Georgia for two weeks with one of my best friends. its a long time and very far, but its with my best friend of 2 years. its not like it was someone else who i hardly knew, who jsut invited me out of no where. so anyways it was a free trip all expenses paid. i told her all the details, and gave her time to think. infact i gave her about 2 weeks to think. she still said no. i was mad but i got over it. Today my sister asked to go outta state with her BOYFRIEND, who she lost her v card to, for 3 weeks. my mom yelled at her, then said "fine"

is it me or is that just not fair?! like honestly think about it, compare them, if you had a daughter and she asked you to pick between letting her go fer 2 weeks with her best friend nd her family, or with her boy friend and no one else, which would you choose?! i've posted this on myspace facebook twitter nd even here, but once again, i state, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY MOMS THINKING!!

So since i was supposed to leave this up coming weekend, and im not, im trying to make plans, like going to nilsas house fer a few hours during the day, hanging at the mall, having shelby, lexi, or nilsa come over fer a few hours or spend the night... my mom yelled at me cause she doesnt want me making so many plans... shes really starting to piss me off.. like really?! im a fucking teenager, i can only do nothing for so long.

Martin leaves on Wednesday nd should be back thursady night. i was hoping to see him this weekend but no. first my mom said no. second. hes busy. its not fair! Alexis *my sister* gets to see her boyfriend like 5 days out of the 7 in the week. i know its easier fer her cause hes got a car and all but still.

im the kid my mom doesnt have to worry about yet she has a tighter leash on me than anyone else in this house. i dont understand why. im the one who has never sneaked out, never lied about where i was or who i was with, ive never come home with a grade lower than 71, im the one whos decided to "save herself til marriage" because of what my sister did, im the one who tells my mom everything that goes on in my life even though it seems as if she could care less. im the kid that has to act as two because my sister hardly talks to us anymore. yet she lets my sister go where ever with who ever when ever. its fucking stupid.

i dont think my sister understands what she has. she has the freedom to do whatever she wants yet she somehow found a way to fuck it up nd make my mom get all strict on us. even me, the one who hardly does anything bad minus forgetting to wash the dishes every so often. literally, the child anyone would kill for! im not trying to brag or anything but seriously! im an amazing kid! compared to 98% of teenagers out there, im practically perfect! but i somehow get stuck with a sister who lies, cheats, sneeks around, talks to much, tries to act like an adult, and thinks shes old enough to do whatever she wants. but you know what? if shes old enough to have sex, she should be old enough to pay her own bills, get a job, or even learn to fucking clean up after herself!

God... shes so fucking immature for a 15 year old... or maybe im just to mature for a soon to be 14 year old.

i just hate how i got stuck with a sister whos my total opposite. i know everyone says you should love your family and blah blah blah but honestly? its hard to love someone who causes so much pain, heart break and disappointment.

sighh i think ive let all my frustration out... now if only Martin would text me backk... :(