Soooo- Brianna

I talked to Malenie today
like fer the firs ttime since like the 1st week of school
but i dont mean
"hey how do you like school?"
i mean like
"hey so whats going on with us?"
it was really short cause we didnt really have anything to talk about
because really, nothing happened with us
and i mean what happened between her and martin,
is their business
not mine.
i just thought id talk to her about certain things.
but like after that talk we were like close
like as if weve been hanging out the whole school year
when it was only a day
shes really really cool
like i didnt expect her to be this cool
and i thought itd be weird between us
but honestly,
its just something that like all day we joked about
likei mean not what happened
but like how some how,
all this shit got us closer.
usually it tears people apart,
but..
i dunt know.
but yeah shes really cool nd im glad im getting to know her(:
like i said, this year is different fer me already,
so i mean all im gonna do is take it step by step,
day by day
go with the flow,
whatever you wanna say.
just gonna let things fall into place fer me,
if i see that theyre going in the wrong direction.
then ill do something about it
but fer now all i can say is
I Love High School(:
plus im actually getting guys today ;)
in fact 2nd period i felt like i was getting raped :/
stupid seth and paco..
i dont know.,
like its weird.
8th grade i thought i was happy
but i really wasnt
like yeah i had boyfriends and good grades and cool friends
but i just wasnt happy
at new tech,
even the days when im crying and feeling sick
and bloating and cramping and on my perioddd,
my days havent turned out bad so far
so this year my lifes turning around in a good way
and i lvoe it(:
i can finally Say:
Im Happy
\ive had boyfriends, ive gotten new friends, i have good grades,
like i mean in high school thats all that matters, and i have it all (:
oky so back to how awesoem my new best friend is :P haha
like my mom said i can invite one friend to Hutto
i thought about nilsa but shes doing her party
and i dun wanna invite lexi or mileena or fah
cause theyre going to her party
*i think**
soo i was thinking of inviting Malenie but
i dunt know like it seems to soon
if that maes sence.
haha
like with a boyfriend you dont go out on a dtae a week after you get together
with friends they dont hang out til like at elast a week
but i mean idkk were getting like kinda close quickly
so we'll see how the week goes
and just take it from there(:

Ho Shizz... - Lauren

Lyn and Ashley nearly beat the shit out of eachother today.
WE were all hanging out in the hallway like normal, and all of a sudden we hear the two of them screaming at eachother, Lyn kept calling Ashley (my brother's girlfriend) a Cunt, and Ashley was being a bit more creative, but Lyn always just came back with the same thing.
But... It was really frikking funny. Lyn... Everyone's like, afraid of her, but when they finally came to blows, She flailed at Ashley and bruised her a little bit on the bridge of her nose, and Ashley actually threw punches and Split her lip. ^_^;; I just love how much of a wimp Lyn actually is, and how BA Ashley actually is. XD It's pretty-much awesome. =D
SO yeah, there's that for you. :O

On another note completely, I always thought I'd never want to move out of my house ever, but I'm getting real sick of the testosterone that seeps from every molecule of this house. People think girls are moody. HA! My brother's an emo, my uncle's a hermit, and I recently witnessed my 44 year old dad throw a temper tantrum of sorts this weekend. I would like a little less MALE invading every waking moment of my home life. O.o And slightly more Male in the romance department would be awesome. ><

On another entirely different note, I can't wait for SCARE This year! =D So many friends from completely different groups coming together should be interesting. I've known rowan upwards of 6 years or so, I've only known Montanna about a year though it feels like forever and we're super awesome, I've known Nilsa two years and we're LEGIT as Ben would say. This should be fun. XD

Friday- Brianna

Geometry class.
i have one regret.
i just dont know what it is.
do i regret kissing his cheek and letting him kiss mine?
or do i regret pushing him away?
Martin tired to make out.. or kiss me
in geo yesterday
i dont think he knows how hard it was fer me not to do it.
the feeling i had in my chest was crazy
and still even now when i think about how it happened
and how we were so close to doing it,
i get the same exact feeling :/
i hate it.
and his excuse was
" why not im single"
yeah thats why not.
because youre single im not gonna kiss you.
if youre not my boyfriend,
your lips shouldnt touch mine.
like why cant he just stop messing with my heart and ask out Malenie already?
i mean thats obviously what he wants.
and if it isnt?
tough.
he basically told me striaght up
that we just dont work out together.
so if thats true, why is he trying to kiss me as soon as the teacher walks out?
:/
its so hard for me to deny him.
i want him back but its not gonna happen
so a lot of the flirting,
all of the touching,
and especially all of the kissing
has to stop.
ughhhh
i guess im just...
Hopelessly Devoted To You.
"
Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you;
My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you"

today- Brianna

todays out first away game !!
im so exciedlike i know were gonna kick some hard core ass
(:
i just know it.
its like the first day of school all over again
yer excited til the last second
and youre counting down til its time to go
and you put on yer cutest outfit ever
*which i diidd(:*
and theres adrenalin in yer body
i love it
were stopping at Micky Dees before we head out
so guards gonna have our first "dinner"
together(:
we alweays talked about going out to eat one day
i mean we ment like Chedders or something
but its a start(:
anyways so yeah im excited(:
just counting down til 2:15 (:
I DONTHAVE TO GO TO BIOLOGY TODAY ! :D
oh how i love the bonuses guard gives me
like leaving early
going to pep rallys and football games
aaaand gettinga letterman jacket next year :D

Nice Friends - Lauren

So, i have a friend named JD. JD is rather christian, but sings and plays his guitar and Keymonica (real name - Tenor Melodica. Look it up. Best instrument ever.) all the time, he is really nice and really funny. He once told me and shea that we were like his dude friends, Shea got all upset at being called a dude, but he really just meant we were cool and he could talk to us. He's quite a perv at times, but only jokingly. But honestly... It may sound a little strange but It's kinda nice when he tells you how hot you are or tries to hold your hand. You know he's joking, but it still makes you feel good about yourself. He does it to tons of girls, but there are definitely ones he avoids, and it's nice to be included. Also it's never bad to get a compliment, no matter how silly and over the top it is. :) It's also never awkward for some reason. I mean, you know it's not like he likes you, from what I can tell he's still swooning over kate, who is a complete B**** and loud and obnoxious and Grrrr, I don't know why he likes her, she's so preppy and obnoxious, and is dating Nathan (who is in college now, though she's only a junior). But... It's just not weird ever. He calls Jordy 'The Hotter One' Because she's Kira's 'sister' and JD likes to remind her how much hotter she is than Kira. He, Chris Cody and I were driving to Sonic this morning (well, Chris was driving. XD) and he reached over and grabbed my hand, and told me I had to hold it, which I did, and then he was like "Look guys, I'm getting lucky! This is my form of getting lucky." It was really silly. I don't like him like that, he's just nice and funny and it's nice to get compliments now and again. ^_^ Ya know what I mean? Or do I sound completely crazy... XD

Color Guard

color guard is gonna turn me into a bad ass
i already know it is
like one day after the games were gonna have a lock in at the PAC
sounds so much fun right?
and with these girls plus Kris i know it is!
yesterdady we basically just talked
we spilled secrets
and laughed
and joked around
it was amazing
the we started talking about how far weve gone
out of the ten people
theres only 3 virgins and im one of them.
im the only one whos never been drunk
whos never even taken a sip
and the only one whos never smoked.
and yet some how out of the three Vs
ive gone the farthest.
but anyways
at that party i know somethings gonna happen
wether i want it to or not
its gonna be one of those things
but is it bad that im excited?

200(: and then some. - Brianna

this is post 200(:
i remember when i posted number 100(:
but anways,
i finally figured it out.
guys think that just cause they say sorry
were gonna run back to them
and everythings gonna be perfect
like if nothing ever happened
well..
it is like that
it is with me and ive realized that
so today is where i put my foot down.
theres no more "only exception"
no more flirting
no more "baby girl i still love you"
no its all bull shit anyways.
im done,
and the next time he has to say
"im sorry"
i swear to God, it will be the last.
im done letting him walk all over me.
im done HANDING him is cake, and letting him eat it too.
no more.
my rules are rules
and hes gonna have to learn to follow them.
the ones he knows about,
and the ones he doesnt hes gonna have to learn the hard way.
does this mean i dont love him anymore?
fuck no.
he still has all of my heart,
but i know that little by little all hes gonna do to it,
is tear it apart,
so im done(: