What a Fucking Night. - Lauren

When something bad happens dad gets this particular sound in his voice. I don't hear it often, but when I do I know that's when it's really bad. It's this high pitched sound, usually attached to a 'what' when he hears. he simply can't understand why something is the way it is, and you can hear it in his voice. I heard that sound tonight. Let me explain...

Went to bed at 12:30 totally exhausted from the awesome concert I went to see last night.
Too tired for choir practice the next morning, decide that I'm going to sleep in and stay until normal school time.
But lo and behold, 4:30 AM Who other to wake me up by banging on the door than his mom. She proceeds to apologize for waking me and tells me that Jim and Patrick were joyriding in a stolen car (my uncle's car) and were chased by the cops up to 120 miles an hour and hit a guardrail. She proceeds to further tell me that Patrick is in the hospital and Jim, my wonderful brother, ran from the cops. He was texting her with Patrick's phone, but that was all, and she knew she had to tell us. I of course get the fun job of waking dad up and telling him this lovely news.

This is when Dad gets the sound in his voice. We're all outside trying to figure out what to do and how to do it, considering we can't get ahold of him. All we know is that he passed Sam Bass and hopped a bunch of barbed wire fences so his hands are all torn up. We know there was blood, but Jim being a 16 year old, 'knows some medical stuff, so he's okay'. Dumbass wasn't wearing a seatbelt. Dad called Jarrett, the defuser and detective for the austin police department - our kindly cop friend who Jim trusts, and we sent Jim his number. Jim (thank god) called him, and Jarrett got his location out of him and got him to stay there, he got him fixated on just wanting to get back to his own warm bed instead of running. Dad's on his way to get him. Julie went home (her mother and daughter were in the car with her, having come from the hospital with patrick). I get to sit and wait, and wait until bryan wakes up and I get to tell him Jim stole and wrecked his car, and try to calm him down. I'd rather be anywhere else.

And of course, it's five in the fucking morning so no one is awake for me to tell this too, so I'm talking to the blog. Hi blog, how are you? Feeling Bloggy today? well that's dandy. Me? Oh i'm just shaking and just as worried as anyone else, but i get to sit and play the waiting game. Oh that sounds fun does it? do I detect some sarcasm? I think I do. Well bloggy... I think I'm going to put something on netflix and eat some mini wheats if I can and try to calm down, and hope someone wakes up. Thanks for listening dear bloggy. Oh, no, I don't think I'll be going to sleep.

Readers - Lauren

So it has come to my attention that a certain person who I have talked about in these posts has found this blog, and is now increasingly mad at me for calling said person an asshole.
I would just like to state that I do not think you are a terrible person, I do not hate you, But I do think you were being an asshole, and if I have to completely lose your trust in me to get you to see that then so be it. It's bad for her and I don't want to just sit by and let things be. But, I don't want to meddle. I will give her advice when I see it necessary, I'll be there for her when you're being an asshole, But I'll try not to get too far into the middle. 

P.S. Getting pissed off at me for something I said in a Blog that you had to search my facebook page to find, even though you un-friended me, is totally unfair, and it's kind of creeping me out wondering what you read. Just saying. Weird. There's shit on here that like.... Two people know, and if you are number three, that's weird. Just thought I'd put that out there. Have a Nice Day!

Positive stuff! - Lauren

Most of this blog is all problems and stuff, so I'm gonna take this opportunity to say some happy stuff!

My first babysitting job today, babysat Montanna's little sister at the pool for 4.5 hours, it was awesome but MAN that girl never gets tired. XD got 15 dollars, admission to the YMCA, two dresses, a shirt, dinner, and Ice cream. ^_^ All in all, good 6 hours. XD (Plus Montanna and I got to hang out in goodwill and try on obnoxious clothes like Idiots. X3 lol

I'm leaving for a week at Nilsa's house for Potter Camp tomorrow! I seriously can't wait. XD I haven't seen the guys since Halloween, and we haven't all been together since camp last year! It's been far too long. (The only sad part is missing Francesca. :( WHY MUST FLORIDA STEAL MY FRIENDS?!)I can't wait to be out of my house for a week, I love my family but.. I WANT TO MURDER THEM ALL. Jk, but seriously, they are REALLY getting on my nerves, a week away will be awesome for me. ^_^

I now have 75 bucks, having money is a good thing. ^_^ I babysat, and one of my dad's friends payed me $10 a shirt to adjust 5 of her t-shirts so they fit right. and $10 more to re-wrap the straps of her favorite purse with new fabric. =D

I fixed up my favorite shoes I thought were dead with a hot glue gun (I <3 hot glue... Best stuff Everrr). High Tops with the Heart Grenade on them (Green Day lolz).

Things may be looking up with Sam, She actually told me to  text her when I asked her what was wrong on FB instead of ignoring it like normal, and we had a real (Albeit short) conversation about problems Between her and an Ex, and kinda sideways about us. It was progress. =)

So, I'm doing much better than the other day. ^_^ I'm Happy and Excited. Can't wait till camp!!!!
~~Lauren~~

P.S. If anyone Cares, I have another Blog, http://www.lovelyricslove.blogspot.com where I take a song, post the lyrics, and then write a description of why I picked it and why it applies to me. =D